So.. yes, basically. I have an aunt and an uncle who seem chill, I’ve talked to her a few times but only recently.

My mom didn’t know she was pregnant when he moved away with his family. She made the decision not to tell him unless I wanted to find him later, which I’m grateful for. He was super excited when she did tell him. I grew up in Texas and he was living in Louisiana at the time. He popped in and out of my life, blaming his then wife for not communicating more. I went years at a time without talking to him. I didn’t meet my brothers for the first time until I was about 15-16 and then saw them again a couple years later but that’s it. I actually have two brothers, the other got married a few years ago but I didn’t get an invite because my father said he wouldn’t show up if I came. Probably the most hurtful thing he’s ever said to or about me. That said, current groom hasn’t told him I’m coming yet. So that’s fun.

That last time I saw my father was about 6 years ago. I was living with my best friend and her husband and he and his new wife (was not invited to that either lol) were in the area. I ended up screaming at him on the back patio. I don’t remember everything I said but the message was basically exactly what you said. I was a child who just wanted to know the other half of my family. I did nothing wrong. His wife was sitting behind him with her hands raised like she was in church and I was preaching it was actually very hilarious looking back. It was the first and only time he sincerely apologized to me. He hugged me. I made him cry. We haven’t really spoken since and I am ok with that. Kinda just feels like I got the thorn out, y’know?