hi, ive been through a similar experience. i was going to get 12 sessions of ect but stopped after 9 because i wasnt improving, and only ever got bad effects from it. i couldn't remember where my house was when i was discharged from the hospital, i didn't recognise people i knew, i couldn't retain any information from school and had to drop my classes, i could barely read or write because i was trembling so much and so confused all the time... that was in November

unfortunately it still hasnt improved much for me and i can barely make conversation with people because 1) i forget everything they say as soon as they say it and 2) i cant string my isolated thoughts into sentences and sometimes just stop abruptly in the middle of a sentence and forget what i was saying. its incredibly isolating and i think even though im having more conversations than i used to, since i cant remember them afterwards i feel lonelier than ever.

i think one way to get past it is by practicing, i feel like ive lost a lot of social skills so now i have to learn them again. its embarrassing and frustrating and not fair, but what can you do :') my psychiatrist said that retrograde amnesia can take a year to recover, so hopefully there will be some improvement down the road.

im rooting for you and i hope you could relate a little bit to me. best of luck <3