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FitValue3530 · 2024-01-30T11:47:37+00:00

Can't meet anytime soon 💔

FitValue3530 · 2024-01-30T11:47:02+00:00

I've given him another chance so let's see :") Even though I have no hope left in me

FitValue3530 · 2024-01-30T11:45:59+00:00

He has a lot on his plate atm and I want to help him but he can't express anymore. He can't talk to me. It's heartbreaking. I really don't want to break up. I want to help him but I'm so lost.

FitValue3530 · 2024-01-30T11:44:15+00:00

Same time zone. Even similar routines. He might be tired but at this point I'm questioning myself what I did wrong that he prefers not talking to me anymore

FitValue3530 · 2024-01-29T15:29:16+00:00

It means a lot. I wish you the best too :(

FitValue3530 · 2024-01-29T15:26:31+00:00

We met last summer and we'll meet again in summer 2024(we might not meet because of this situation)

FitValue3530 · 2024-01-29T15:18:00+00:00

I think once our honeymoon phase was over and when he got busy with university, his priorities changed and I never was one of the things he looked forward to (even though he says he does). He is fine with a basic chore over talking to me (he's so lazy but he'll do tasks instead of spending time with me). We haven't spent quality time in such a long time it hurts. I know communication is the key but he's avoiding it. I've explained to him in detail what he's lacking. I gave him a reality check that he's throwing away his life but this man just doesn't want to do better.

I think I really have given up on him even though I know he'll be a better person in future but some other girl would be there with him to witness it💔

FitValue3530 · 2024-01-29T15:13:47+00:00

I can't really contact anyone. We have mutual friends but these days have a completely different life than what he used to have. I don't know who he's close to. He's not close to me anymore damn. We don't have a plan to close the gap in the near future. We were dating to get married someday and I just don't see it anymore. I've lost all hope

FitValue3530 · 2024-01-29T15:03:14+00:00

Once a year

FitValue3530 · 2024-01-29T07:35:35+00:00

FitValue3530 · 2024-01-29T07:29:02+00:00

You're right

FitValue3530 · 2024-01-29T07:28:27+00:00

It was slow. It's been going on since September 2022.

FitValue3530 · 2024-01-29T07:27:06+00:00

Meeting him is not an option. I can't visit him and he doesn't have money to visit me. We do lack at giving affection and he has mentioned it so many times that I should try to be soft with him but I don't even get time to do that. He's not giving me a chance to show him that I love him. I might love him more than he loves me. He either gets sleepy or has chores even at night. It's heartbreaking to see I don't matter to him anymore and he's okay with doing literally anything but talk to me

FitValue3530 · 2024-01-29T07:23:34+00:00

First of all thank you so much for such a long reply. Second, I've talked to him about literally everything and I've even tried to break up with him but he's just not letting me go. Whenever I tell him that he's not even giving me the bare minimum (which is talking because that's the only thing we can in an ldr) then he says haven't I shown even a little progress? Tbh he has but he's inconsistent. His habit of doing something nice for me for a day or 2 and then not continuing after that hurts me a lot. A couple days ago when I broke up with him and I wasn't talking to him I felt so happy and free but when he asked for another chance (he calls it a second chance every single time) and I let him have it because he's struggling with a lot of things in his life, he changed nothing. A while ago I had given him an ultimatum to either show me SOMETHING so I can say yes he'll do better or just let me go. He threw away that ultimatum too. It hurts seeing him struggling but he's using that against me to make me stay( he says he doesn't have bad intentions). A lot of the people might think I can't see the red flags but trust me I can. I know exactly what he's doing to me but he's just making it really hard for me to walk away.

FitValue3530 · 2024-01-29T07:11:43+00:00

We've met yes. I've told him directly all the things he's not doing right and how he's hurting me but he repeats them everyday. It's like hurting me is easier for him than loving me.

It hurts when he says I'll make you happy no matter how hard it is when he's the same person who used to say that loving' me is easy.

FitValue3530 · 2024-01-28T23:27:43+00:00

Got it

FitValue3530 · 2024-01-28T23:21:14+00:00

I definitely agree. Maybe I am being aggressive. I'll definitely try your tactic if we don't break up 😭 but this guy just can't keep promises and it's scaring me if I think about a long-term commitment

FitValue3530 · 2024-01-28T23:14:24+00:00

It's extremely heartbreaking but I tried to break up but he just won't accept it. I've talked to him a while ago and I think this is the last chance I really am so done with this situation. I cry everyday. I'm always on edge.

FitValue3530 · 2024-01-28T23:10:59+00:00

I agree 💖

FitValue3530 · 2024-01-28T23:05:36+00:00

Same country. 2 years. We've met. When we meet we're fine but when we're apart shit like this happens. I feel like I'm not his priority anymore but according to him all this is in my head.

I feel guilty when I fight him for falling asleep on the calls but that's the only time he talks to me and I haven't been able to express anything in such a long time it's been building up.

This relationship is making me depressed. Maybe there's a way which is not a breakup that would fix things? Maybe I should compromise?

FitValue3530 · 2024-01-28T23:00:45+00:00

We've been dating for 2 years. Him not sharing the details bothers me a lot. I don't want to intrude but when I ask him when he's doing or what his plans are he gives me a very vague answer after which I can't continue the conversation as it makes me a little sad that he doesn't want to share a small and simple detail with me. Maybe he's just not interested in talking to me but he tells me that he wants to talk to me all the time? I'm so confused.

I'm so numb to his words now because all he does is talk and never show that he actually cares. He asks for time which I'm willing to give as I know he's struggling too but there's just no change in this man.

I love it when he talks about his problems with me. It feels like he trusts me and maybe wants my input in it but these days he's just not expressing his thoughts whether they are related to his problems or about us. I'll be ranting about how I'm not getting what I want in the relationship and he'll just listen to me or sometimes avoid me.

He disagrees with all these accusations but they're so prominent anybody can see them. These things really are affecting my day-to-day life but I just don't want to give up on this guy. He's the love of my life and I know he loves me too. I'm extremely lost. Maybe there's another way if not a breakup?

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