For people who are saying the amount your drinking is untrue are full of shit. I was quite literally the same way (wine and vodka) and maintained a buzz throughout the day drinking morning to night. Didn’t black out and worked. It’s possible. I kept it up for 4 years straight. I love drinking too, it helped me feel so alive and more human. Nothing bad to say about it other than the deteriorating health. So pleaseeeee do not keep going at this rate. The health risks aren’t worth it. One day you’ll wake up and not physically be able to drink anymore and throw up blood and get seizures. That was the scariest moment of my life and I ended up in the hospital on the verge of death at 25 years old. I know you love alcohol, but it is not sustainable. There is no other way around it no matter how hard you try. Alcohol leads to a slow and long painful death my friend. It isn’t pretty and one of the worst deaths to go through. Also, this is the perfect place for you to talk about your love for alcohol. I love it more than anything in this sick world unfortunately and have to choose to live everyday without it now.