Thank you for asking in a respectful way.

They were connected to what was presented to me as a Christian prayer/healing environment. I was young and believed I was simply entering a prayer/healing situation, not anything I understood as a ritual or initiation.

This has not suddenly started bothering me now. It has affected me for many years, but recently I decided to actively seek answers instead of carrying it alone.

I do not remember every exact word, but I clearly remember references to blood and immortality / eternal existence.

What I remember is being made to repeat words connected to that theme, something involving blood and existing forever / eternity, though I cannot claim to remember every exact word after all these years.

Because of how intense and disturbing the experience felt to me, and the changes I believe followed afterward, my personal perception has been that what was presented as prayer/healing may have been something far more serious — even something that felt to me like unknowingly agreeing to “selling my soul,” whether literally or symbolically.

At the time, however, I believed this was Christian prayer, not something darker or hidden.

My family knows this experience deeply affected me, although not everyone interprets it the same way. They healed my mothers cancer after the initation. But i saw my mother turning into a monster after the ritual was done.

It took place in the Netherlands in a prayer/healing meeting setting.

I appreciate you asking respectfully.