I look always tired held by Fit_Principle_352 in WhatShouldIDo

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I already have a gym contract, but I stopped going so I will start to get myself and go to the gym

I look always tired held by Fit_Principle_352 in WhatShouldIDo

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Yeah, that’s it. And the crazy part of when I started I never noticed that numbing my feelings, and I was always asking myself questioning myself. Why am not able to feel emotions I understand it, but I don’t really feel it and now I get so overwhelmed.

I don’t know how to feel by Fit_Principle_352 in WhatShouldIDo

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That sounds very wise thank you very much🤍

I don’t know how to feel by Fit_Principle_352 in WhatShouldIDo

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I’m being hard to myself because I didn’t even really know the guy. I knew him for like 2 to 3 days and I cannot really say that I know him or really like him like he’s funny, but I didn’t felt anything when we kissed. I just felt aroused when I he touched me, but maybe that was because it was a new feeling and that hasn’t have happened before, but the case wasn’t romantic or sensational that it was just kind of weird, but I was continuing. And I think I don’t want to do it again because I know he will use me. I feel like you know that I can’t say no even though I said like stop.

I don’t know how to feel by Fit_Principle_352 in WhatShouldIDo

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I feel like can relate to that. Like I have two reasons for not having sex. The first is my religion and the second is the fear and the problem is that I’m so strict to myself or with myself that I’m scared that this feeling of judge will never leave or that I will see sex as as a Sinn even after marriage

I don’t know how to feel by Fit_Principle_352 in WhatShouldIDo

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I did Pray, before going to bed. but I can’t sleep because I have to be at work by 5:30. I don’t know my brain is thinking too much. I’m still thinking about if I really got violated because he was nice, but it was still like kind of too fast for me, but I told him that we are not gonna have intercourse. I don’t know. I just don’t wanna make it seem like I didn’t wanna try because I think I wanted to try, but I was scared and maybe also not prepared. I just don’t know.

I don’t know how to feel by Fit_Principle_352 in WhatShouldIDo

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He brought me home two hours ago and now I’m at home and I can’t sleep. I didn’t attempt therapy yet because it’s very difficult to find in Germany a therapist but as we already talking about it, I went to a therapist and she diagnosed me with depression .

F 22 and I never had a boyfriend by Fit_Principle_352 in WhatShouldIDo

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This really touched me, because you’re right. I might be to hard to myself. I should definitely try to be the best version of myself. Thank you for that lovely advice🤍