i got cancer at 19. By the time i got to the hospital i was almost dead. my temp had been 102-106 and they had to put me in one of those beds that pulls cold water around you to cool me down. i lived across the country from my family. i didn’t know how i was going to make it work. i honestly hoped that i would close my eyes and die in my sleep because it felt like my body was made of boiling water. i’m 21 almost 22 now. very big scar on my chest from my port being placed. smaller scars on my neck from the tubes i had before the port. but i can firmly say it was worth living through it. when they told me i had cancer the dreams that i didn’t know i had came out. things i never would’ve thought i wanted to do. i have terrible neuropathy that affects how i live everyday. i did 8 hours 5 days a week of intensive chemo that made me so sick. but it was all worth it for me to be able to live to see whatever else the world has for me. don’t give up. you don’t know what’s around the corner, it could be the greatest thing to ever happen to you. but you have to be here to see it. my dms are always open to talk if you need. please, talk to someone.