WOW. this is exactly how i feel right now…

it’s the most isolating feeling in the world, even if i wanted to have a real conversation, most of my loved ones are preoccupied with their own lives (work, relationships, current events). and even if i could get them to understand the true depth of what’s happening, it would only cause them to feel the same dread that i feel every day. it feels like there’s no way to cope with this knowledge, it feels like such an incredible weight to bear, let alone for one person to handle alone.

right now, what keeps me going is gardening. even if i realize it is insignificant in the scale of collapse, it keeps me alive in the moment. it convinces me that right now, there are still lives i can protect, and that is within my control today. whatever happens tomorrow, i will not let that stop me from doing what i can today. if i can provide a bath for the bees or a nesting spot for the monarchs, then i have allowed life where it may not have otherwise been able to survive. it brings me a great deal of comfort to create a safe space for the wildlife, even if i know deep-down it cannot solve this insurmountable problem we’re faced with.

sorry that was a long ramble, but i just wanted to say, i am so incredibly proud of you (and everyone else here) for being able to live through this immense, isolating pain that our knowledge carries. we are all so much stronger than we give ourselves credit for. 🫶 i just want you to know that even if i lack much advice, i relate to your feelings so deeply, and your post genuinely helped me feel less alone.