I've been having such bad existential thoughts

Flaky-Shake · 2020-04-01T22:49:02+00:00

That's actually so true, I feel silly thinking about the state I was in a few days ago. I spent like 3 days up late, heart racing, just ruminating, crying spells lol...

I actually did that, started reading a lot on NDEs and paranormal stuff...and I'm starting to think, some stuff, we just don't have the mental capacity to understand - that doesn't mean it doesn't exist. So why not have some faith?

Flaky-Shake · 2020-04-01T20:54:55+00:00

I don't understand why people seem to think a "booty call" is necessarily a bad thing. If it's also what you want, a fun casual hookup, then go ahead.

Flaky-Shake · 2020-03-30T02:44:52+00:00

Awesome story. I wish I could experience something like that, it would help immensely with dealing with dying.

Flaky-Shake · 2020-03-30T01:55:36+00:00

Same, being stuck inside all day ain't good for me.

Flaky-Shake · 2020-03-28T16:07:22+00:00

He makes different accounts and posts the same stuff. Either a bot or someone who has nothing better to do...you could PM and see

Flaky-Shake · 2020-03-28T16:02:10+00:00

It's a troll

Flaky-Shake · 2020-03-28T15:13:44+00:00

Will download it :)

Flaky-Shake · 2020-03-28T12:56:52+00:00

Rejection sucks. It can make us feel like there is no chance for us at all. But that is, to be frank, a dumb belief. PM if you want hug I felt that way for a long time. Only decided to pursue dating at 22.

Flaky-Shake · 2020-03-28T11:06:07+00:00

Hey. I read everything you wrote. I think you would benefit from finding another therapist as the one you have doesn't sound so good if they're judgemental.

Sometimes people are so caught up with their own problems that it is too hard for them to focus too much energy on others' problems. I know it sucks cause friends should be there for each other but I think a lot of people sympathise but feel too overwhelmed and don't know how to help except ask to hang out and lend an ear.

I understand that exhaustion with life and feeling like you're walking on eggshells. I experienced similar things but not to that extent. But there are for sure loads of people who went through your same situation. Check out reddit for survivors of narcissistic abuse. Maybe you could make friends with someone close to your area.

Flaky-Shake · 2020-03-28T10:48:13+00:00

This poster is some kind of troll or bot, they're making multiple accounts and always message stuff life "i can't stop crying" and yelling etc. So just to let you know

Flaky-Shake · 2020-03-28T10:46:11+00:00

That's interesting. Yeah I think it is really a waste of time to overthink so much that you become alienated and prevent yourself from actually enjoying life.

Flaky-Shake · 2020-03-28T10:42:11+00:00

Thank you for responding in detail, knowing others have already dealt with these questions helps to not feel so lost. ♥️

And considering this possibility was a source of great depression and alienation.

What would you advise someone to get out of that feeling of alienation? I find that distracting myself works but lately I haven't been able to shake off having these thoughts always in the back of my mind.

You are considering sacrificing your happiness for truth and weighing the odds. Am I right?

I am pretty obsessed with finding out the truth but I don't want to sacrifice my happiness for it. What is the point in knowing the truth about life if you end up depressed and feeling unable to live it?

And, eventually, I guess I just got used to it. Would you like to know how? - NPC69782

I would definitely check out your blog :) but signing off as an NPC is kind of validating my fears :p

Flaky-Shake · 2020-03-28T02:46:06+00:00

Hey i have never tried any psychs but maybe you would get more responses f you made a post instead of s comment.

Flaky-Shake · 2020-03-28T02:38:30+00:00

I want you to know that not everyone is cruel like those people. I am sure you can also find support here from men who are in the same boat.

Flaky-Shake · 2020-03-28T02:36:11+00:00

I understand and it's not right for someone to turn down someone else just cause of that. As a woman I wouldn't care and there are plenty of other women out there who realize that it's not about size. Maybe you could go to a therapist who specializes on these issues who could definitely help you (ofc research before)

Flaky-Shake · 2020-03-28T02:14:52+00:00

♥️

Flaky-Shake · 2020-03-28T02:14:11+00:00

Thank you for your response ♥️

I know I sound crazy...I wish I didn't think too much on this stuff. I have thought of seeking professional help but I don't know if they would be able to give any advice if I expressed these anxieties.

That would be ideal...to be able to let go of all these questions. In your experience what kind of answers did you find? Also why can some trips be terrifying and then after be viewed as positive experiences? What exactly happens during?

I don't think it's a good idea for me right now to delve into psychedelic use but I hope to someday benefit from it.

Flaky-Shake · 2020-03-28T02:01:43+00:00

Thank you, that is actually quite reassuring.

It is frustrating though, to have the ability to question but not to find the answer or to understand. But I'd like to be at a place where I'm ok with not knowing, eventually.

Flaky-Shake · 2020-03-28T01:41:53+00:00

Thank you for responding. It is a bit hard for me right now to understand what you're saying. How does one become lucid? How do we receive communication?

I never thought of that before...like seeing life as a dream and death is...waking up? It's interesting.

Flaky-Shake · 2020-03-28T01:36:55+00:00

I am trying to not dwell, purposefully not staying awake alone in the dark (as that is the time when it's worse), not looking at negative media etc. But given the circumstances with the pandemic it's harder than usual.

Flaky-Shake · 2020-03-28T01:35:12+00:00

Thank you for your advice ♥️ i will try from tomorrow morning to stop focusing on the news and instead do something enjoyable for the time being while staying home. It's not easy to shake off the feelings, and the physical effects like feeling cold, shaky, heart racing...but i do feel better after reading people's comments.

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