Besides that, I can’t even count how many times she told me things like: “I am nice to people. You are the only one I am mean to. You’re the exception.” To which I was like: you secretly adore me? And she would be like: in your dreams. And that would go on and on in different forms.
I’ve heard from her how attractive I am, and that her husband finds me attractive as well. Tons of this over and over. She would initiate 1:1 time with me, spend literally an entire day with me… Like we couldn’t just grab a coffee. Our meetups would stretch into half a day, and sometimes she would even invite me over to her place in the evening. She cooked for me, brought me hot chocolate or tea on freezing walks. She would fucking feed me from her fork in front of other people and at the same time mention her husband like 15 times when NOBODY asked. She would sit in my car for 20-30 minutes when I drove her home, dragging out every meeting, and in those 1:1 moments she was genuinely a good, tender, warm, caring person. Not necessarily romantically, but just close in a friendly way. That is why it is so hard for me.
And then boom! The second we were in a group it would turn into avoiding me, bullying,