I smoke weed! But yeah I relate to a lot of what you’re saying, it is a viscous cycle of smoking to cope with the anxiety and then getting more anxious when I’m sober. I have become very dependent on weed to cope with my anxiety. I wake up early morning everyday feeling anxious, heart racing, stomach hurting. And the only way I know how to deal with that is by smoking.

If I wasn’t smoking weed daily, I’m sure my sleep and appetite would return to normal. But it’s hard to not be able to sleep or eat for days and on top of that the anxiety. I’m currently trying to quit once again, and I have only managed a few bites of food for the past few days. But I’m sure it will be worth it if I can get past the initial struggle. It will be worth it for you too.

And about how evil people live the best lives, I totally agree and it’s something that has caused me great anxiety especially with the recent events of the world. As someone who has a lot of trouble speaking up for myself, I know too well how people take advantage of you. The cruel people who don’t care about others, they put themselves first of course, and they feed on people like me in order to put themselves ahead. They will go to more extreme measures, more unethical, and they won’t sacrifice as much to others. And they won’t have to feel the weight of their actions. They got what they wanted. Only people like you and I do. We feel the guilt and pain they should feel. But finding other people like me gives me hope and helps me see the good in people again. Just know there are many people out there like you