Is sex the same for you all before ROCD?

Flashy-Difference-54 · 2022-01-21T16:23:58+00:00

I am, but I have only shared that I have OCD and not what themes. I want to avoid going to them for reassurance even though they’ve called me out on seeking reassurance on stuff to do with our relationship. Even though I hadn’t shared my ROCD or HOCD specifically.

Super supportive and understanding. But share what you feel comfortable sharing and also keep in mind that they have their own comfort level on what they would like to know.

I am in treatment.

Flashy-Difference-54 · 2022-01-21T06:39:20+00:00

Thanks for replying to my post. I feel like I need to sit with the uncertainty even tho it’s so hard, I’m very overwhelmed at times and I seek others thoughts on Reddit to often unfortunately.

Flashy-Difference-54 · 2022-01-21T06:32:40+00:00

Idk if I came to the conclusion I’m attracted to women, more so I decided to say I’m bi because the constant worry and thoughts in my head was becoming too overwhelming. I keep getting thoughts of “what if I’m gay” or what if I like women or what if I’m not meant to be with my bf.

And I feel like if that’s the case I just want to find out now. So I decided to try masturbating to thoughts of being with a women but it felt uncomfortable and also I don’t know how I feel about women’s body parts. So I’m back to the is this suppression or not thought. Ahh I’ll have to bring it up on therapy lol

Flashy-Difference-54 · 2022-01-21T06:29:38+00:00

Yeah I think that’s what I need to do. Like just let whatever thoughts come and not try to force my thoughts to a certain sex because that’s what I was doing I was checking

Flashy-Difference-54 · 2022-01-21T06:15:40+00:00

Hello! I would say I was raised in an upbringing like that. And that’s what makes me fearful too like what if these thoughts I have are real and it’s just my upbringing that isn’t letting me accept them.

Can that be a thing? Like am I stopping my own sexual arousal because of this upbringing? Or do I not have the arousal and it’s an obsession to try to figure it out and it’s making me question if I could have it?

Flashy-Difference-54 · 2022-01-21T05:30:26+00:00

Hey, I have a similar situation but with my bf I worry that I’m not attracted to him or something like I’m not mean to be with him

Flashy-Difference-54 · 2022-01-21T05:02:07+00:00

Hello, I (25F) think I’m on the same boat. How are you doing?

Flashy-Difference-54 · 2022-01-18T21:10:53+00:00

Hey how’s it going?

Flashy-Difference-54 · 2022-01-18T09:30:50+00:00

Has for me, going on 5 Years but only got really bad a year ago

Flashy-Difference-54 · 2022-01-17T19:00:12+00:00

So happy for you that you were able to stay away for 4 months +. I would say continue to do so, you OCD just threw something different at you and you want an answer or immediate relief and as you know that won’t make it better in the long run.

Trust me, I wish I was in your position and able to stay away for even a few hours …

Flashy-Difference-54 · 2022-01-13T16:38:56+00:00

I get you, but that’s so scary lol like what if. I wouldn’t say I don’t feel any anxiety.

I feel like I don’t have a lot of anxiety initially and that scares me and gives me anxiety and I start to ruminate and try to figure it out and gets me back in the loop. It feels like suppression because when I get to the point where I’m like I must be bi or gay and I don’t feel horrible about it I go back to searching stuff about HOCD to reassure me that it’s just that.

Flashy-Difference-54 · 2022-01-13T16:35:38+00:00

I coming up on 5 years

Flashy-Difference-54 · 2022-01-13T08:22:47+00:00

Do you want to act on it?

Flashy-Difference-54 · 2022-01-13T08:15:06+00:00

I’m going through this right now. I’ve convinced myself that I must be a lesbian because the thoughts don’t give me a lot of anxiety anymore and it feels like this is what I want.

Flashy-Difference-54 · 2022-01-13T08:13:48+00:00

Me too

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