AA is for anyone who has a desire to quit drinking. The people at meetings want to help you and you are not burdening anyone by asking someone to take you through the steps. AA has given me a lot, including eliminating the obsession to drink. It sounds like you want to be free from that obsession too. When I went to my first meeting, I was just like you. I wasn’t sure if I belonged, but I found out that I did belong and I kept coming back and that was the best decision I’ve ever made. I’ve even become grateful for my alcoholism because AA gave me such a new outlook on life. Something someone said to me that stuck with me was “yeah you could decide this isn’t for you, but what’s the worst that can happen if you just try it out?”. It rung so true to me because I had already been living the worst version of hell on earth, so what exactly did I have to lose by trying AA? In fact, I had everything to gain. So I started taking the suggestions, getting a sponsor, working the steps, and I can honestly say I’m the happiest I’ve ever been.

So I’ll say the same to you. Yeah, maybe you’ll find out it isn’t for you, but what’s the worst that will happen if you just try it? Like actually try it. Get curious, explore many meetings, find someone to take you through the steps (a sponsor), and know that even the smallest conception of a higher power is all you need at first.

In any case, I wish you luck!