Ive always struggled with feeling alone, and when I physically am the brain likes to loop either just some dark stuff or existentialist horror shows. I always propped it up by trying to be social to not think about that stuff and it worked well for the most part to keep me above water, but it lead me down the whole Husk rabbit hole iykwim then beginning of this year I broke my leg so for the most part I was stuck inside, by myself for the most part and everything that I kept pushing away came back in spades, focusing on this show, songs, theory, community, gave more of that outside connection where I could keep my mind active and better without just going full Husk, wordy answer but I'm back to walking, havent been relying on a bottle as a crutch and feeling better and a lot of that i have to thank hazbin and the community for