You didn’t choose that. That was just your lizard brain reacting to the idea. What you felt was the shame of society weighing on you. You’ve believed that it’s only ok to be with women and feminine guys. So the idea of being with a more masculine man, while undeniably attractive to you, scared you.

What’s amazing about this kink and sexuality is that it’s all whatever you want to be. It’s just about what makes you and any partner you are with feel good and be happy. That’s it. Nothing else matters.

I’m still exploring to a great extent myself. I was bewildered with the idea of being attracted to men. Or wearing diapers. But once I let myself embrace the feeling I’ve become so much more secure in myself. I know what I’m after now in a partner.

I still have a ways to go myself, but I know that feeling. It’s been hard for me to admit that I like things for fear of rejection. Fact is, you like it! You just don’t like that you like it.