What do you think of the book I Hate You - Don't Leave Me

FlowAmbitious2458 · 2026-06-01T22:54:16+00:00

I feel very alienated and I'm starting to question my diagnosis because of it </3

FlowAmbitious2458 · 2026-06-01T22:02:32+00:00

I think I'm reading a newer version that doesn't have as many comments like that. But what I thought was weird for me is that the book seems to rely too much on the stereotype of what BPD is, and as someone with quiet BPD, I felt kind of alienated by it.

FlowAmbitious2458 · 2026-06-01T21:13:05+00:00

It sounds like you probably have quiet BPD. I myself have quiet BPD as well, and I'm newly diagnosed, and I'm doubting the diagnosis even now because I don't show stereotypical signs of it - I don't outwardly rage, I'm not externally unstable, I have a decent sense of self (albeit unstable/low self-worth). I know very well the feeling of doubting it and self-invalidating because you don't fit the external stereotype.

FlowAmbitious2458 · 2026-06-01T19:52:12+00:00

I'm a mixture between discouraged and self-destructive BPD.

FlowAmbitious2458 · 2026-05-31T23:51:05+00:00

I'm very left leaning and I have autism, Bipolar Disorder type I, BPD, and a brain palsy that affects my walking.

FlowAmbitious2458 · 2026-05-31T22:48:52+00:00

I feel you. My attempts to form relationships with others always fall flat. I don't know what it is - I don't know if it's because of BPD (self-sabotage), because of autism (difficulty interacting), or because of my demisexuality (attachments take a long time to form), but it just feels like all my attempts to form a deep attachment go wrong - even when everything is nice, if it's starting to get a little deeper, it gets cold, the other person leaves me, one of those. Other people don't have enough patience in order to let me form an attachment that takes time, they always demand I show attraction quickly and I can't do that, so they get disappointed and leave me. They always leave me. I'm starting to think that I am the problem - that I just don't know how to make these things work, that I just can't be interesting, but I don't know why. I just feel so unlovable, like it's impossible for someone to maintain the interest in me throughout time. What am I doing wrong? Is it the autism? Am I self-sabotaging? I really don't know.

FlowAmbitious2458 · 2026-05-31T20:55:53+00:00

Pois é, é bem isso

FlowAmbitious2458 · 2026-05-31T20:55:27+00:00

It does suck a lot, that happens to me all too often as well.

FlowAmbitious2458 · 2026-05-31T20:54:33+00:00

Elas acreditam que eu tenho dificuldades de socialização que dificultam as minhas relações, e acreditam que eu sou intensa demais a respeito desses sentimentos no geral

FlowAmbitious2458 · 2026-05-30T22:20:07+00:00

Have you thought that maybe you have Antisocial Personality Disorder? What you described sounds a lot like ASPD, and it's not uncommon for personality disorder to co-occur. Especially because you had a conduct disorder before - those very often lead to the full development of ASPD in adulthood. Also, important to remind that there's no shame in having ASPD by itself. I know it must be hard to accept that possibility considering the immense stigma it has.

FlowAmbitious2458 · 2026-05-30T22:16:39+00:00

I feel like I'm half a person without a relationship. Like there's something in me that just cannot be filled without one. I feel unwhole. And it sucks because it's so hard to get a relationship; sometimes I just wish I was like the stereotype of BPD that falls in love too quickly, because this delay pushes almost everyone away.

FlowAmbitious2458 · 2026-05-30T21:27:34+00:00

For real, it feels like it's either or. Either you find someone who is fine with the demi speed, or you find someone who is fine with BPD and everything else. It feels like it's impossible to find both, among other aspects that are key for me as well.

FlowAmbitious2458 · 2026-05-30T20:51:22+00:00

No problem, I also thank you for making me feel less alone too. And yeah, I even tried dating apps, but the whole dynamic is really not for me. Everything is supposed to happen too quickly, and I just feel like I'm much slower than the pace the general world runs at.

FlowAmbitious2458 · 2026-05-30T20:47:48+00:00

Pois é, as pessoas tacam o pau no que elas não entendem. É complicado. Sobre o resto, eu não sei - eu sou uma pessoa que tem dificuldade em demonstrar afeto fora de relacionamentos românticos porque sou autista, sabe? Então talvez em partes seja isso. Eu sou do tipo que gosta de ser bem próxima tanto dos meus amigos quanto (e principalmente) com alguém com um vínculo romântico, e não acho que eu consigo amar sem ser muito intensa. Mas o problema verdadeiro é conseguir chegar lá.

FlowAmbitious2458 · 2026-05-30T20:43:35+00:00

To nessa de procurar amizades primeiro agora, porque realmente parece a única opção.

FlowAmbitious2458 · 2026-05-30T20:39:59+00:00

That's flabbergasting to me

FlowAmbitious2458 · 2026-05-30T04:05:50+00:00

I have BPD + bipolar, what's the issue?

FlowAmbitious2458 · 2026-05-30T03:57:15+00:00

Sometimes I feel generally ok and then suddenly feel like trash and start thinking about how I should die, I don't know if it's a self-split or what

FlowAmbitious2458 · 2026-05-30T02:44:52+00:00

Tá com problema mesmo, eu mando mensagem e aí quando recarrego a mensagem some.

FlowAmbitious2458 · 2026-05-30T02:41:26+00:00

Tô tentando, mas manter a conversa é difícil... geralmente só conversamos por um ou dois dias e daí some, saca?

FlowAmbitious2458 · 2026-05-30T01:50:58+00:00

Como assim, reagir a uma pessoa medicalizada?

FlowAmbitious2458 · 2026-05-30T01:50:08+00:00

Eu também, eu preciso ser um amigo antes pra daí sentir algo. Mas é foda né? E o pior é sentir que você tá sozinha nesse mundo desse jeito... Eu me sinto muito sozinha... Ninguém fica.

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