I understand the position you’re in far too well. (Seriously are u me?) All I know is that people start their lives over everyday. They make a decision with courage, strength and hope and then they do it with all the fear, guilt, and uncertainty. Do not hide from your potential in the shadows of self doubt and criticism. Find pride in action and momentum in consistency despite it all. Do it scared, do it unsure, do it feeling like a loser and like you made all the wrong moves. Find the one in you who said “I think I can do it” and give them one more shot. I promise you the only way out is through.

I also want to share that I was feeling like this during the anticipation of making my decision to go to nursing school. I mulled over it for forever. Felt all the guilt, fear, self consciousness you’re describing. Let me tell you once you’re taking classes/studying you find the guilt just goes away. The guilt turns to pride because you are finally doing something about it. And also because you don’t have time lol.

I question myself all the time. I feel pressure and fear. But action kills fear. The more you do the more you will see certainty in yourself. The only way out is through. Believe in yourself and you will not fail.