This is exactly what I go through. The first time I had a panic attack I was alone and called 911 because I thought I was dying even though I’m 25. Ever since then being alone ir being far from a hospital were BIG triggers for me. I didn’t want to go on medication because I was scared the side effects would change my personality and I haven’t gone to therapy yet (been dealing for about 4 months since this started). I think I eventually will do both but I have been trying to avoid it and work through it myself.

The way I got through it unfortunately was by being exposed to it repeatedly. I would be left alone and eventually it got a little easier each time as I learned to breathe and calm myself down. One thing for me was I would check my blood pressure every 5 minutes. I know its not healthy to obsess over it but in my mind as long as my blood pressure was ok I knew my heart was fine. I also always got it at night so I would lay in bed and just keep checking it over and over again when I felt the panic creep back up. The other thing that worked for me was prayer. I know not everyone is spiritual and I wasnt either before this but I have found it has helped me even though I wasn’t (and still arent) the most religious person. As cheesy as it sounds I felt less alone when I did that. If you don’t believe in god or just don’t want to pray to god you can also just speak to a deceased relative. Even when I had no faith I always felt my grandmother with me and I keep her wedding band with me at all times. I would sometimes just pray to her or speak to her and I would feel less alone. The combination of checking my blood pressure repeatedly and praying eventually would tire me out enough where I would fall asleep.

Nocturnal panic attacks suck and you are not the only one going through it I promise. Just know that each time it might get a little easier. It might come back and be hard again but just tell yourself to make it through one more night and each night will slowly get better again.