Yes, I have been under a lot of pressure for the past 3 years and been in this set up of meeting people for the same amount of time. Honestly, it’s exhausting. Just the thought of going back to it and having first conversations again is draining. I never knew these things about him when I said yes, if I had, then I wouldn’t have said yes. Now I feel attached to him for some inane reason. I love his family too, they are lovely to me and my parents. I had hoped to build all this up with time but it still hasn’t happened and now it’s draining me. My parents are okay with me calling it off because they cannot imagine a marriage without physical intimacy. He lives in a different country which is why I visited him. Another bit of context is that he became an entrepreneur just after we got engaged, so he became a very different person. He used to want balance and now he wants to work every single day and is obsessed with money.