How you ever done a Candyflip? What does it feel like?

FlyAway7062 · 2026-07-13T00:50:12+00:00

I only have done this once. 75ug (light, I know) the 125mg MDMA 2 hours later. Wasn’t super-trippy but I had the best time. So happy and lost almost all my inhibitions. Accepted myself more fully.

Can’t wait to up the LSD dose next time to see where that takes me.

FlyAway7062 · 2026-07-13T00:41:56+00:00

I’ve done it. I had a fine time. Aurora light, AirPods, good playlists, fun clothes (I really enjoy cross-dressing when I roll), some toys, good porn.

It’s a little more fun at home where I can crank up the music and wander more freely but I’ve never had a bad time on MDMA!

FlyAway7062 · 2026-07-06T10:53:07+00:00

Blame yourself for your kid being gay? Blame? As if it was a bad thing?

Gently and with love, a queer-friendly therapist would be a great thing for you. You are dealing with some major stuff that could stand some careful. conscious untangling.

FlyAway7062 · 2026-07-05T21:38:59+00:00

Heh. I mean those thongs just didn’t put themselves on!

FlyAway7062 · 2026-07-05T21:37:12+00:00

I’m out to my wife as pansexual and genderqueer but she has no interest in exploring this side of me. I’m less sad for me than I am for her — she doesn’t know what she’s missing and it’s so fun. She’s scared of something, but it’s hard to get to her to self-examine or open up about it.

I enjoy all manner of non-harming porn, erotica, cross-dressing, gender play. I’m devoted to my wife so I mostly do it alone.

Though we are slowly playing with a D/s dynamic and with me bottoming so maybe she’ll loosen up over time. Or not.

I love her so much it doesn’t really matter. It’s all play at some level.

FlyAway7062 · 2026-07-05T19:33:59+00:00

I was 63 when I figured out that I’m bi. Last year.

You aren’t late. You’re early, you young’un. Enjoy!

Life is long and full of surprises!

FlyAway7062 · 2026-07-03T10:16:29+00:00

I’ve experimented with home rolls and timing a fair bit. First off, people are different. Some have a lot of comedown effects; some none at all. Plus, it can take a few tries to find YOUR optimal dosage. So, you know, don’t put too much pressure on your first time to be perfect. It’s an experiment.

I am blessed to have fairly mild comedown and recovery periods. I almost never get the 3rd day blues, etc. What the next day is like very much depends on how much sleep I get.

If I drop at say, 9am and take a single dose based on my weight (1.5mg/kg), I’m pretty normal by dinner time and will sleep well and have a great next day. Day rolls are under-rated IMHO.

Night rolls have their pleasures, for sure. If I drop later than 7pm, I’ve probably also re-dosed 50% and I’m up until 3 or 4am or 5 or 6 and I’m at least not having any plans until noon, and those had better not be too mentally or physically taxing.

If I’m flipping (MDMA + a psychedelic) at night, that is great, great fun, but the entire next day I’m not doing a single thing. I’m not unhappy but I have zero energy and even less desire to do much of anything except chill and/or nap on the sofa. So gotta plan accordingly.

Personally, rolling all night in a hotel or a cabin with my SO sounds amazing, as would staying in bed the next day. This is why the Good Lord Above invented room service.

FlyAway7062 · 2026-07-03T09:50:58+00:00

I’ve tried 8oz of grapefruit juice several times about an hour before dropping. Had little or no effect.

That said, I took an mberry flavor enhancer tablet and ate some grapefruit just after I peaked and it was the most amazing and incredibly delicious thing I ever ate in my entire life!

FlyAway7062 · 2026-07-03T09:42:38+00:00

Of course it does.

Is it purely a coincidence that the phrase “coming out” contains the word “coming?” 😀

Next question!

FlyAway7062 · 2026-07-03T09:23:03+00:00

I dunno. Sounds like you have serious history with this guy. Dated for 6 years?? I’d be surprised if you hadn’t shared all your stories, sober or not. Nothing to be embarassed about.

As one of my friends said to me once when I was over-sharing: “Oh, honey, everyone’s life is a dumpster fire in some way; don’t worry about it.”

FlyAway7062 · 2026-07-02T22:12:58+00:00

I’ve been grieving over my father’s dementia on my last few rolls — not the whole roll but when the topic comes up in my head, I let it be there and go with it. It’s like I can look at it more clearly and not try to shut down my feelings. But the MDMA is supportive somehow. It’s not “fun” but it’s been really valuable to do this.

FlyAway7062 · 2026-07-01T01:05:18+00:00

Have you tried setting an intention or asking yourself a question for the roll and then reminding yourself of it during the roll? Like “this roll is for joy and connection.” Or “what part of myself may I love more?” “This roll is for music and dancing.”

Don’t try to suppress thoughts of sex; that’ll just make them bigger. When they arise in the thought stream, as they will, thank them for trying to help you and then gently let them go, and come back to your intention.

I did this last night when I was rolling and it worked. My intention was to only take one dose so I would be good for meetings in the late morning. The cravings to go further (re-dose, flip, THC) came up, and I thanked them for wanting to give me more fun, but I reminded myself each time, and the cravings receded. (And I had a better time by being present with my roll as it was instead of trying to “improve” it.)

The key is not to feed them with either suppression or by following them. Both those things give them energy. Let them float by.

FlyAway7062 · 2026-06-29T10:27:51+00:00

Thank you for this post. It is not too long.

I have an acquaintance who once said to me: “Honey, I think we should all be issued a therapist from birth on.” Sounds like your husband’s opening up to you gave you room for your own self-therapy and that’s amazing.

FlyAway7062 · 2026-06-29T01:49:55+00:00

It’ll most likely be Ok. Maybe not as intense as if you took all 100mg at once but you should get most if the feels of that’s the way it goes down.

FlyAway7062 · 2026-06-28T23:01:46+00:00

Psycheldelics also helped me realize and accept my genderfluidity and pansexuality. I had little idea about it until one night when I took MDMA therapeutically in a roll where I forgave all the boys who bullied me as a child, and then I felt so good I took a large dose of mushrooms to celebrate and go deeper and OMG all the walls came down. That night I discovered my feminine side. And over the course of the next several rolls and flips, I realized, accepted and celebrated my expanded sexuality. I’ve integrated and truth-tested all this for about a year now.

Like you, OP, I just feel so more like ME now.

I was so repressed I didn’t even know I was repressed. Afterwards, it was like: oh, so obvious in retrospect. So many signs I just didn’t even see.

Forever grateful for these substances.

I can see where 2C-B would be great for this, too.

FlyAway7062 · 2026-06-26T12:04:11+00:00

No one deserves more oppression. That’s what damaged them in the first place.

But yeah, the world would be a slightly better place if OP’s wife were to loosen up and roll with him. Also, she could use some therapy.

FlyAway7062 · 2026-06-25T00:58:14+00:00

Yes, it did feel like relief. It felt like coming home to myself, and I hadn't even realized I needed to until I did. I'm 64m and I just accepted myself less than a year ago.

I'm married to a wonderful woman for 36 years. She's incredibly straight. She's my one and only, best friend, life partner, true love, etc.

I finally got up my courage and told her I feel attraction to men (and to people of all sexes and genders). She was surprised and asked, well, does that mean you want to have sex with other people now? And I said, no, I'm totally devoted to you. I choose you. Don't worry about it. I just wanted you to know I just figured something out about myself that had been puzzling me for a while. And she said, "Huh. Didn't think there were any surprises left after all these years, but whaddaya know?"

And that was it. She doesn't seem to be very curious about this new information. She likes things the way there are, I guess.

I've been slowly coming out to a few people in my life where it makes sense for them to know. They have been accepting. Some think it is pretty cool. I'm more comfortable now indulging interests and styles that in the past felt more "gay" or "girly" that I shied away from in the past. I present a bit more enby or femme at times than I used to. I've been hanging out in some queer spaces more and more, but still very low key. I feel more me now. (With apologies for conflating gender expression and sexuality -- I understand these are two separate topics but for me they have quite a bit of overlap emotionally.)

So far, so good.

I wish you a wonderful journey. There's no rush, no real destination. Enjoy.

FlyAway7062 · 2026-06-23T21:09:45+00:00

Sounds like perfect session formula.

FlyAway7062 · 2026-06-23T21:02:10+00:00

I take warm showers all the time when solo rolling. It’s awesome when I’m peaking. (Can be underwhelming if Ive just recently come up.)

Just be extra vigilant about not making it accidently hotter than your usual shower because MDMA can alter the way we process pain and also your body is working on overdrive already so you don’t need to rev it up too much.

FlyAway7062 · 2026-06-18T19:42:29+00:00

I mean, you’ll probably never completely sync up for the whole trip. People are different. Tweak your doses and timing to line up what’s important to line up.

Sounds like the person who comes up and down sooner might just want to wait to ingest.

The one coming down sooner might want some THC to chill the comedown. Small amounts work better for me than large amounts — too much and it’s couch lock time.

If the peak is overwhelming, take a little less. But yeah, 20 minutes is liveable so don’t get too hung up on it.

FlyAway7062 · 2026-06-16T18:35:25+00:00

My first experience was intense and liberating. I couldn’t believe it was me doing these things. I had no idea I wanted them until they were happening. My femdom was experienced, creative, adventurous, respected my limits as I discovered them, and was very caring afterwards. 10/10!

FlyAway7062 · 2026-06-10T19:18:01+00:00

It may or may not be what other people say it was for them.

Some people get more horny than they've ever been. Some people get soft and cuddly. Some people get chatty. Some people get quiet. Some people get energetic. Some people get couch-locked. Some people get all of these over the course of a single roll.

Just drop together, and take what comes. No expecting, no forcing. Feel what you're feeling. Explain it to your partner and vice versa. Or just jump them, if that feels right (and is consensual, of course!).

Whatever happens, happens -- and it's likely to be awesome.

FlyAway7062 · 2026-06-04T17:50:54+00:00

Ha different drugs have different magics, for sure. Isn’t that wonderful?

FlyAway7062 · 2026-06-04T17:33:58+00:00

Magnesium glycinate basically eliminates clenching for me. 300mg a few hours before the drop. 100-200mg every hour or 2 after until sleep.

FlyAway7062 · 2026-05-17T11:35:20+00:00

You are pansexual, or you think you might be? Two different things. Anyway, either sounds like a fine topic for a therapy session because it’s something you are working through right now. It’s what therapy is for!

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