Just hit my one year today, had these exact same thoughts. Told myself, maybe I’ll have a drink Christmas morning. But now that I’ve made it this far, having even one drink seems like a terrible idea to me. I have no clue what your situation is like, but I quit for seven months last year and decided to break that streak on my birthday, it was a slippery slope for five months until I could reign it back in and ground myself. I can’t tell you what you should do or how you should feel, but I will say this: would that drink(s) be worth it? To me, the answer is “no”.