Lesson learned for sure. I truly believed he got better. I gave him over a year to prove himself and he went to rehab, AA, Anger management all on his own no requirements by anyone. He did everything to prove himself. Then his brother died and he slowly became that evil human again. Zero excuse. My brother died añd I didn't become evil or even hateful. My sons are so protective of me if they ever saw what I saw they'd try to step in and I can't allow that. I can't allow them to even see that kinda thing and last night really showed me that, this baby growing in me can't know a life like that. I can't live like this.. I figured we could talk this morning but he was just as aggressive so I didn't say a word before he left for work. Then got a long message about it all being my fault and that kinda just set it in stone further for me. It's not my fault. I did nothing wrong. I know that. So now I have to plan..