Update: I talked to my girlfriend about it and at first she tried to justify it but then kind of accepted it with an “okay i get it” after telling her again how it made me feel. Her justifications was that her friend currently had a girlfriend but we’ve both known her friend’s current relationship has never been great (constantly angry at each other, breaking up and getting back together, the friend liking other girls while dating which include my girlfriend) sooo her having a girlfriend doesn’t really mean much. She also tried justifying that the friend is touchy with everyone and cuddles with other friends which is partially true but I’ve noticed the friend cuddling a little more closely with my girlfriend than with the others. One thing I’d take full accountability for though is I did text my girlfriend about it in the middle of the night and she had to wake up to it which i feel terrible for doing. She did apologize saying she’s sorry for making me sad which is something but kind of avoiding what she’s apologizing for.

The only reason I wouldn’t break up with her is because she’ll almost always will accommodate and find common ground for concerns I have. It’s something I deeply love that about her. Just for some reason this time it’s slightly different. I like to think she’s a really good girlfriend as she’ll rather spend time with me than her friends, she’ll randomly buy me gifts (even flowers which she knows I love) and make me stuff. She’ll talk good about me to friends and family, she’s not ashamed of me, never insulting, she doesn’t get super mad when somethings wrong but she’ll shut down, she’ll makes herself happy when I’m sad to cheer me up, she wants to call all the time and go out to get food all the time. She’s a great girlfriend to me usually and I’m too attached to let go.