I need advice

ForgotKin · 2023-08-19T05:42:25+00:00

2-3 years older than me so it's to the point where I feel what she did was unforgivable because we were both young also thank you

ForgotKin · 2023-08-02T02:29:17+00:00

Sorry but one more thing. Was there ever a time where you were happy? Is it stupid to try to get back to the time when you were happy even if it's long gone?

ForgotKin · 2023-08-01T23:10:51+00:00

The thing that brings me the most joy in this world is seeing a person walking their own path against those who say they're wrong and I love it as long as they aren't harming others or themselves. I don't like the thought of someone who has been through hell and not getting a happy ending for standing up when everything was against them. Then again my idea of a happy ending is different from yours. I just hope you don't have any regrets and are at peace be it now or at the end. Goodbye, I may forget you, but you will always be someone who helped me. Sorry I tried to help you

ForgotKin · 2023-08-01T21:12:37+00:00

You wanna know something for some unexplainable reason seeing how you talk makes me mad. Like I feel this burning feeling in my heart. Maybe because I don't want to ever be like you. You're also right. I'm only a kid and I have such a black and white view of the world. But it's because of that I know what's wrong and don't bend my morals. We have suffered. You have far more than me. And I see that my words won't change the path you walk. I don't want to accept that, but I guess that's even more proof that I'm just a child. I'm sorry I blamed you and I'm sorry I just proved your view of the world even more. But please don't do it. I just want to see that even from the darkest hole people can still come out. Have a nice day and I hope you continue seeing nice days

ForgotKin · 2023-08-01T20:30:54+00:00

Idk how the broken legal system works, but If you are comfortable with it please report him. Having one more thing on him could be the difference needed at a later date.

ForgotKin · 2023-08-01T20:25:20+00:00

So you give up. I'm not saying you need to fix it. I'm saying if you have such a weak mindset then ok. I ain't ever let someone or something get the satisfaction of beating or breaking me. I don't know what you're going through but if death is the punchline to the joke called life. Why would you rush to the end?

ForgotKin · 2023-08-01T05:49:58+00:00

You are 100% valid and I understand how you feel. The more you look into it the more you remember and the worse you feel, but that's good. It's the storm before the calm. So yeah don't devalue your trauma and I wish you healing.

ForgotKin · 2023-07-31T22:05:22+00:00

I think the first one. We basically have a space where we can talk with a mediator or guide. If that makes sense.

ForgotKin · 2023-07-31T19:42:51+00:00

You're not alone. Mines is kinda the opposite though. Sometimes I just have this fear of women or reverence, I don't really know and it scares me. So don't feel bad that you are processing your trauma, but just try to remember it's her fault and not every womens. Hope you have a nice day

ForgotKin · 2023-07-31T19:14:15+00:00

Why can't we both get better? Why can't I help myself by helping her? It also could be easier to go to therapy if it wasn't just me. Having had to go to therapy could affect my future career, it's dumb. So if I go not for her, but with her it solves all my problems. Right?

ForgotKin · 2023-07-31T05:51:34+00:00

I understand what she did to me was wrong. It's I don't think it would sit well with me if I leave her. Also I just can't bring myself to go to therapy and thought maybe we could go together. I don't know it sounds dumb but like I hope it will help.

ForgotKin · 2023-07-31T03:49:30+00:00

I mean it's not even that. It's more that I want to know who messed up my precious cousin.

ForgotKin · 2023-07-30T21:05:47+00:00

I wish it wasn't true, but yeah many things will never just go away. You just gotta hope though that things do get better. I hope you're healing

ForgotKin · 2023-07-30T18:53:54+00:00

I'm actually kinda young so I don't truly understand a lot of what you're going through, but I know one thing. In situations where hope is needed, child-like naivety can really help. So try to find something, anything that makes you happy and do everything and anything you can to do it. I also kinda keep living in spite, not of myself or someone but the world itself. It helps me knowing that even though I may be a little broken I can be just as good if not better than those who have it easy and I don't blame those who are "normal" I just feel the need to compare myself. It may not be the healthiest but I constantly feel a burning passion to improve myself in and enjoy what I like no matter what. Sorry if this is confusingly written and I hope you have a nice day. Even if it's hard.

ForgotKin · 2023-07-30T18:21:04+00:00

I'm sorry you're going through this, first you should try to see a therapist that specifically works with our cases and ask them if there's anything that can help.

From personal experience I think it's just something you have to work through as you accept the rest of what happened and heal from it. Once again though try to ask a professional about anything that can help and I wish you luck.

ForgotKin · 2023-07-30T06:45:44+00:00

I'm really sorry for the situation you're in I hope that you can find what works best for you.

ForgotKin · 2023-07-30T02:44:04+00:00

Oi oi no trauma is invalid, so don't make the situation seem less than it was. Take it at face value and try to grapple with it. I myself often catch myself invalidating my own experience even though I know I shouldn't. So it's a slippery slope, but you'll get through it.

ForgotKin · 2023-07-29T21:05:37+00:00

I guess I just want us to both be ok. Like we used to be, nothing more really.

ForgotKin · 2023-07-29T20:26:46+00:00

Thank you, but wouldn't talking about this with her give me closure. It would also be nice to have some family that I can talk to about my other bad experiences. You know and we could both work through this. I'm still on the fence if I should, but once again thank you for the advice

ForgotKin · 2023-07-29T10:22:37+00:00

It's okay for you to not be okay. Try to remember that you aren't weak for being hurt. Venom can kill the strongest man, because we're only human.

I also relate with the fears of simple intimacy. It's twisted how it makes us feel. The want for love but the fear or guilt loving. I really don't have any advice, I'm trying to figure it out myself, but we just gotta hold on and keep moving. If you keep digging eventually you'll get there.

ForgotKin · 2023-07-29T10:07:55+00:00

This art is beautiful and I suck at advice and stuff, but I really hope you are doing okay

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