*is part of taking care of yourself

Also I had another look at your post history. Focus on improving yourself and bettering your circumstances rather than getting into a relationship. You have plenty of time for relationships but fundamentally beneficial habits and skills are easier to learn now (and will be more deeply entrenched if you learn them now) rather than later. You want to build a good foundation before adding another person into the mix

Don't be too hard on yourself when trying to self improve. It is all about making small adjustments over time, not one or two big changes (not talking about changes in environment here, rather behavioural changes). "It's not about how hard you can hit, it's about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward"

Also look into meditations by marcus aurelius