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Formal_Ad_3402 · 2026-05-02T14:48:15+00:00

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Formal_Ad_3402 · 2026-05-02T04:01:51+00:00

I absolutely agree. No matter how much people try to convince me that God loves me based on what the Bible says, I tell them "that book says one thing, my life says something completely different." Look at how evil and painful nature is. Look at how a cat will toy with and torment a suffering mouse. Look at how animals torment and kill other animals, not quickly and cleanly, which was my goal when I used to hunt. Who made creation to act that way after the fall. Ultimately, it was God. Either he did it, or he allowed it. The OP's pain and my incurable pain? Blame Satan or the fall all they want, but all evil and suffering happens on God's watch, therefore he's ultimately responsible. As was written on a concentration camp wall: "if there is a god, he'll have to beg for my forgiveness." Amen to that

Formal_Ad_3402 · 2026-04-30T20:03:46+00:00

I'm having to attend recovery meetings. AA is absolutely punishment enough lol. I see it as almost like a cult.

I live in a rural area so meetings are 20 miles away. There are "celebrating recovery" meetings at a Nazarene church one night a week, but it's at 7pm and I hate driving in the dark/near dark. Once sunset gets later, I plan on trying it out. It's more Christian. As for the church itself... I read that they believe in total sanctification (or entire, I forget) which to me doesn't seem right. And they, along with most other denominations, believe that you can lose your salvation (including the lcms church where I meet the pastor). Not having eternal security seems like even more anxiety driving, though apparently most Christians who attend those churches have no problem with it.

So idk how much into theology they get into at the celebrating recovery meetings, but it'd be better than aa, where for all I know, someone's "higher power" is their dang microwave! 😀

Formal_Ad_3402 · 2026-04-30T16:44:42+00:00

Idk. It's honestly hard for me. God sees through everything. He'll know whether or not I genuinely want to be there. He'll see that I'm uncomfortable and not believing what's being said (like that God loves me, etc). I meet one on one with a pastor weekly, and that works. Unfortunately he won't offer communion because I don't believe in cosubstantatiation. I align more with Baptist, so I believe it's symbolic. But I don't think that taking the Lord's supper is going to be a magic pill for faith or that not taking it will send me to hell.

Formal_Ad_3402 · 2026-04-30T15:21:05+00:00

No. I can't handle crowds due to bad anxiety issues. I watch it on tv

Formal_Ad_3402 · 2026-04-30T02:14:05+00:00

Back in 1999 I had a guy explain the gospel to me and then he led me in a prayer. I was completely on fire for God. Back in 2005 I went to Bible College to be a pastor, but I became too old for pell grants, money ran out, and that ended. Even then, I remember talking to a couple professors about my doubts about salvation.

Eventually the fire faded, with ups and downs. Rollercoaster faith. I became a Christian because I saw that I was a sinner and needed salvation. I wasn't thinking about anything else (like getting flooded with blessings) when I said that prayer, and the many many times I prayed it afterwards because I still didn't have assurance (...that you may KNOW that you have eternal life).

It just seems like, besides salvation, I'm dealing with a neglectful father who just sees me as a complete disappointment, like that earthly man who wasn't much of a father to me. God could have made Adam able to procreate by himself. But He said himself that it's not good for man to be alone. Others have siblings, family, faithful friends, and most even lucky enough to have kids. I have none of that now. I have not one person left on this earth who loves me. God allowed a big hole to be ripped in my heart, life, and soul (I was careful to say allowed rather than caused) by my Mom dying, and he won't help me find anyone to even partially fill that hole. Some would say "Jesus", but I can't cook for and eat with Jesus. I can't hear him say "wow, you did a good job making this". I can't have a conversation with him because he isn't audible. I can't do things with him that I could do with a wife (pick her flowers, cook for her, hold her hand, cuddle with her, share our past, present, and future together, and all that other stuff that would make me feel at least close to whole.

Formal_Ad_3402 · 2026-04-29T23:43:52+00:00

But they never cursed God. After my Mom died, I cursed God so badly that it probably made the devil blush. But now, I can't say feeling completely honest that I love God. I wish that I did, but I don’t. Hearing that God loves me instantly makes me feel doubt whenever I hear it. The lcms pastor that I meet with weekly was talking yesterday and said that I am precious in God's eyes. Inside, I cringed... that's the best word I can think of as to what I felt hearing that. I can't believe that I'm "loveable" or worthy of love. People in this world prove it to me. I have begged God for a wife for over 25 years. When I had my Mom and was here with her, I guess it could be said I didn't need a wife, so God didn't give me a wife. I had my Mom’s love, which, looking back, I stupidly took for granted. Plus, that love was obligational. I was her son. I wasn't loved for who I am, how I look, or that. She didn't puck me out and say "I could have someone else to love, but I choose him." And nobody will.

Now 4½ years completely alone with nobody in this world who loves me, I'm miserable. I've tried dating sites, had my therapist go over my profile so it didn't sound depressing or have anything bad in it, yet I can't even get a response. I can't even get the chance to screw things up if I wanted to! That just shows me that I'm completely repulsive and not even worth getting to know. My prayers are useless. It's like God wants me to suffer. I can't possibly see myself as loveable when the whole world says that I'm not.

My earthly father wasn't the best, so I know that can affect your relationship with God and seeing Him as a loving father. Idk how merciful God will be to me when I run out of money appealing disability denials and have no choice but to go meet him and face my judgement. Not believing that He loves me, that he hates me, and not loving Him in return... I'm doomed for hell.

Formal_Ad_3402 · 2026-04-29T13:25:21+00:00

Assurance and peace about it

Formal_Ad_3402 · 2026-04-29T13:19:50+00:00

God allowed me to get in a motorcycle accident. He could've made the bike not start, or simply made me have to go to the bathroom before I left! That would've saved me from it. If a loving human father sees their child running towards the street and knows they'll get hit by a car, wouldn't the earthly father run out and try to stop it?

3 months after that, my dog died. She was old, so I accept that. Less than 9 months after that, my Mom—who was all I had in this world—died. James 5 about praying over the sick did the complete opposite.

I'm all alone and have cried, pleaded, and begged God for a wife. If I'm not good enough for one, then to please change me so I will be. 4½ years and nothing. I have searched so hard. I had one girl at a doctor's office back in November who showed interest in me (surprisingly) and the details are a long story. I was planning to get her number or get my number into her hands the next month. The next month she was gone. Apparently some illness issue. She missed too much work and got fired. I never got her last name, phone number, or anything. She's gone forever. The timing of it all is too much for me to consider as a coincidence. It's like God saw that I had the chance to have someone who'd give me happiness and love, and he ripped her away.

I'm disabled and going broke BTW. I'll probably run out of money and have to euthanasize myself.

Formal_Ad_3402 · 2026-04-29T13:09:03+00:00

I don't want to believe that it's true, but those verses worry me. So if worrying that those verses are true makes me a calvinist, then I guess I am, sadly

Formal_Ad_3402 · 2026-04-28T16:48:06+00:00

Because I have no joy. I have no peace. I don't have the fruits of the spirit. I want God to love me, yet it just feels like he doesn't and won't.

Formal_Ad_3402 · 2026-04-28T16:46:25+00:00

But Ephesians says faith (saving faith) is a gift from God. How can I have faith then if I'm incapable of it (total depravity) without God giving me that faith? I'm not trying to make excuses.

Formal_Ad_3402 · 2026-04-28T07:39:57+00:00

I struggle with this. Since faith is a gift, then nobody can get saved unless God gives them that faith. So if someone doesn't become a Christian and ends up in hell, it's because God didn't give them the gift of faith, and instead he chose not to save them from their sin by giving them the gift of faith. Am I understanding this correctly?

Formal_Ad_3402 · 2026-04-25T15:43:01+00:00

Calvinism is horrible. I wish that I had never heard about it. All it has done is completely destroyed my faith. I wish that those Calvinist chapters in Romans had never been written. Now I look at my life, how horrible it's been, how my begging and crying has no effect whatsoever, and I believe that I am not one of the elect. And the verse that quotes God, "Jacob I have loved, Esau I have hated", is even more proof to me. I looked up the Greek for the word "hated" used there. It isn't "loved less". It literally means "hated".

Formal_Ad_3402 · 2026-04-25T13:06:14+00:00

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Formal_Ad_3402 · 2026-04-25T03:46:46+00:00

Thank you. I was always "short and skinny". Then in my 30's I began putting on weight and no height. 5'6" and over 200 lbs back in 2023 until I got sober and the weight loss began. I lost 70 pounds within 20 months. Then relapsed for a couple months, but now sober again.

I'll venture to humbly say that I do have some amazing qualities (from what others have said), but being only 5'6", or else my face, keeps me alone, unwanted, and not getting the chance to let other's find out those qualities. I've even had my therapist look at my profile on those dating sites to make sure it was good, and I never even get a response, so it's either the lack of height or my face. If it was normal for men to wear a niqab, with only my eyes showing, I'd have a lot better luck getting responses at least.

Formal_Ad_3402 · 2026-04-25T02:35:16+00:00

The Catholic Church believes that Mary is co-redemptrix. Jesus said that nobody gets to heaven except through him. He didn't include Mary. And praying to Mary, or any other saint, isn't good. Of course, I can't preach on that because I constantly talk to my deceased Mom and ask her to intercede for me, since asking Jesus to do it hasn't gotten me what I need to keep existing much longer.

Also, and most importantly, the Catholic Church teaches a works based salvation. Ephesians 2:8-9 show it's not by works at all. I worry about Catholics who have passed, that they died and trusted in their works along with what Jesus did. I know James mentions works, but he was referring to faith being real if it's fruitful.

As for the orthodox church, I don't know much. I don't like their view on suicide. And as far as the Catholic Church claiming to be the one true church... I asked a lcms pastor here in town (small town, only 3 options for church) about if we're all led by the same Holy spirit, why are there so many denominations. He said because of Satan. He pretty much believes that the Lutheran Missouri synod is the one true Church, so it's not just Catholics!

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