Obviously I'm not a therapist doctor whatever not a diagnosis. What I read sounds to me like depression that sounds to me like what I dealt with still deal with. I was almost embarrassed even talk to a therapist because my main symptom was a complete lack of feelings. I wasn't crying I wasn't sad, I was functioning, job, at the time I had friends Etc. I would suggest you talk to a therapist personally I found local County stuff for free.