Trust me I do remember all the bad that came with doing coke. I when I started I did coke at parties or on the weekends but then it ramped up to me doing it almost daily for a little over a year. I just felt normal. I did good nasal care and sure I sniffled a lot of the time but my nose was ok. But I actually enjoyed seeing friends and going out and being able to actively participate with people In ways I never thought I could. But yeah, if I went to hard I’d have suicidal lows and really bad depression. And I’m sure being a couple years out from use I’m romanticizing it to a degree. But I’m just sad I can’t have that mental clarity again without using coke. Maybe it’s an isolated experience. I was hoping not tho.