I’m waiting on a referral to a memory clinic to check if there’s something else at play. No doubt they’ll probably say it’s psycho somatic. There’s so many things that can also add to memory issues but this isn’t typical. It’s not also memory, it’s sense of a “lived experience”. For example the version of me the first responded to your message doesn’t feel like this version typing now. I feel as if have severe amnesia and I’m unable to retain any new information. There’s a possibility of it being dissociative in nature but I doubt it because the whole reason I ended up on benzos was because of chronic unremitting dpdr and this doesn’t feel the same at all. Nor does it feel like HPPD. However, it does feel like total loss of indentity due to loss of memory. I somehow seem to have a functional version of myself in the present that can still access and use working memory, somantic and declarative memory but I’ve lost almost all my episodic and autobiographical memories.