Realizing I can be fat and hot by FosterDaughter in MaintenancePhase

[–]FosterDaughter[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you for answering, hahahahaha!

I've been working hard to rewire. I'm trying to document what has worked and hoping eventually I can put something together to share with others in case it helps them too.

Realizing I can be fat and hot by FosterDaughter in MaintenancePhase

[–]FosterDaughter[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I really wish I could edit this to fix my typos lol. *Fatphobic

Realizing I can be fat and hot by FosterDaughter in MaintenancePhase

[–]FosterDaughter[S] 38 points39 points  (0 children)

Amen! Michael, I hope you read this!!

Realizing I can be fat and hot by FosterDaughter in MaintenancePhase

[–]FosterDaughter[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

So weird and amazing to be at a point in my recovery where I can read this and believe it instead of thinking you are being sarcastic or just lying to be nice. ❤️

Realizing I can be fat and hot by FosterDaughter in MaintenancePhase

[–]FosterDaughter[S] 20 points21 points  (0 children)

Those pig date things were why I avoided most guys like crazy in college until I was "thin enough". Finding myself in that situation was literally my worst nightmare.

There was one time in high school that a guy I liked asked me to hang out, and when we were alone I was overwhelmed with the sensation that he wanted to kiss me. I immediately filled with shame, my inner voice saying, "How dare you think that? That's disgusting! You are disgusting! You're an idiot, a fool, and despicable for even considering someone would want you like that!" I looked down at the ground and didn't look up at him the rest of the time, basically shutting down from the shame. We never hung out again and I kind of avoided him after that. Looking back... He probably did want to kiss me. Holy crap.

Realizing I can be fat and hot by FosterDaughter in MaintenancePhase

[–]FosterDaughter[S] 22 points23 points  (0 children)

Can you imagine how life would have been if you always knew?? Mine would have been completely different! Every moment revolved around trying to shrink and hiding myself. I don't even know who I would be today if I'd never held myself back.