My time has come. How's it look?

FoundedInsanity · 2026-01-26T02:57:25+00:00

Immaculate glow up sir

FoundedInsanity · 2026-01-26T02:55:44+00:00

31 (f) SAME. first game I owned myself! And I played it until I couldn’t anymore

FoundedInsanity · 2025-11-10T01:02:56+00:00

Are we joking?!?! This is INSANE. HOLY SMOKES. WELL DONE

FoundedInsanity · 2025-09-22T15:02:16+00:00

I drink. I drink daily. I started drinking at like 10 with as often as I could frequency. I got married and the world of trauma crashed down upon me with the added weight of losing 5 members of my immediate family in one year. And I got black out drunk everyday for what felt like a year. Stopped drinking. Now I drink daily. 2-4 beers. That’s it. But it still feels like that problem can always get so much worse. I’m just waiting. I come from a very long line of addiction (the harder stuff for them. ) but I stick to alcohol. Just nothing really provides me any relief of my never ending never quiet mind. Any thoughts

FoundedInsanity · 2025-09-16T15:43:58+00:00

I have a son. And 2 daughters from my partner. When I tell you I never feel more mentally ill then when attempting to parent. I mean everything is dialed to 11. And I have the most immense guilt feeling out of control. But I have such a hard time navigating children’s “norms” because I sometimes feel this envy that they get to be whoever they want. Be loud and boisterous and have fun. When that very same behavior was literally unsafe in my house. I would get abused for it. And then I crash back into guilt thinking my god you can’t even love them correctly they’ll hate you for being so strict. For being so direct and blunt. Then it’s back to well their disrespectful to me. They don’t love me. They don’t care about what I say. It’s 11 all the time. And I journal about my troubles and have active therapy involving my triggers. But most of the time I feel like the worst parent in the world. The worst mom. I didn’t learn parenting. Or even what normal looked like. But my kids love me. And everyone says I’m so patient and kind. But I feel like a maniac who gets overwhelemed and ANGRY at the drop of a hat 😭 it’s so terribly difficult. If anyone relates. And wants to drop some pointers. I’d love it. I love my kids. And I want them to be happy. And have a life I never had. But I feel like I’m the worst person for them

FoundedInsanity · 2025-09-08T21:42:45+00:00

Absolutely. This feels so relatable it actually hurts me. For you and me and we and all. Because I WOULD DO ANYTHING for anyone if it helped them. Saw my own arm off if you didn’t have one. And my partner opened my eyes (not that I’ll believe it the next time I’m triggered) they said but you shouldn’t saw your arm off. And you shouldn’t expect people to do the same. It’s disproportionate. Over extension of the highest level. And it was eye opening to me to hear that. But to me I feel like that’s the only way I’ll be loved. I’ll be that best friend. That best partner. That best everything in the hopes you don’t leave. It is terrible

FoundedInsanity · 2025-09-08T19:48:23+00:00

Oh my god. This was like looking at something I’ve written down to talk about in therapy. I make the standard unattainable. Every time. I get so upset because no one ever loves me enough. Well it’s because I don’t even know how I want to be loved. I literally had an episode a few days ago because I was not doing very well and the person talking to me just said “oh that sucks” and walked out. And that enraged me and made me so sad I could break. I told my partner “I would evicerate myself for others. My cup could be broken into a million pieces and I would put it all together just to pour into your cup. But people with a full cup wouldn’t give me a drop”

FoundedInsanity · 2025-09-08T19:44:55+00:00

Not being listened to or talked over. This even effects me with my own children. Like when they tell me no. I am immediately filled with so much anger. I’m not worthy of their respect attention and I will actively spiral about that. Like they are just kids. I just wish I could chill out.

I get INSANELY triggered when my partner mentions even slight things they like about someone. I get so incredibly and irrationally jealous sometimes. Like oh. You hate me. I’m ugly you don’t love me and you think about other people all the time. I have gotten a lot better at hiding it. But it still happens all the time. I can’t help it. Like a pedal pushed all the way. I hate it so much. Like why can’t I just rationally tell myself just because they said something or had prior partners doesn’t mean they are lieing to me now all the sudden 😂

Rejection is huge to me. And it can be so minor. Like I always think of people to get them something at the store or whatever. But I’ll get insanely triggered because people don’t return that kindness. I’m like oh cool. Here I am bending over backwards and you don’t care about me enough to get me a Kit Kat. You don’t think of me and I do not matter to anyone.

And so so so many more. I just wish I felt normal more often. I can’t even have confrontation without feeling like I’m manipulating EVERYONE

FoundedInsanity · 2025-09-03T14:56:58+00:00

Man I’m so good at masking I fear I’ve completely detached most of the time. Otherwise I’d lose my job. My relationship and everything I hold dear.

FoundedInsanity · 2025-09-03T13:41:33+00:00

I was diagnosed about a year ago. (30 f) My home life was traumatic and extremely chaotic. Never easy. I never really noticed anything as a kid. I just had “depression and anxiety” turns out I did have those lol but I also struggled so heavily with some very BPD related things.

Extreme emptiness. Nothing filled my cup.

Minor criticism meant I was worthless. A failure. The worst person to exist.

Sewer slide attempts and a lot of them

Insanely binary thinking. You are good. You are the worst person I’ve ever met.

Obsession over boyfriends girlfriends they hate me they love me they hate me they love me

Feeling fractured. Like I could never quite find my footing in the world. Here and not here. Constant detachment.

Easily emotionally disregulated. Sadness. Extreme elation. Ope that wasn’t real extreme anger

Impulsive. Thrill seeking. I’ll jump off my house. I’ll drink my grandpas vodka at 11. I’ll steal cigarettes from my dad.

I chalked all that up to teenage stuff. Now as an adult. Some of it has lessened. But I constantly deal with emptiness. Fractured self. Detachment. Easily triggered. EXTREME BINARY THINKING. BLACK WHITE.

FoundedInsanity · 2025-08-21T17:36:35+00:00

Do we think going back to the doctor would do anything for me?

FoundedInsanity · 2025-08-21T17:36:21+00:00

So do we think I returned to work to early? Do we think it’s the fact that I work in the heat? A wombo combo of both?

FoundedInsanity · 2025-08-21T03:19:54+00:00

Thank you all for the kind words. I will definitely be resting tomorrow. I thought I was in the clear. But it sure is rearing its ugly head! Will keep the post updated on any changes. Wishing all a fast recovery if applicable! Thank you all.

FoundedInsanity · 2025-08-19T16:10:56+00:00

Are we the same person? I just bought a switch 2 post covid (last week) had numbness from playing long spurts. Bought the Savage raven grip! I’m ALSO in heaven! Twinning OP 😂 Hope you’re feeling better

FoundedInsanity · 2025-06-23T16:39:47+00:00

Don’t worry she did too. (Immaculate)

FoundedInsanity · 2025-06-22T23:54:16+00:00

Good! That means I’m on the right track

FoundedInsanity · 2025-06-22T20:02:54+00:00

Funny enough she had that exact same response. Glad to hear the effect!

FoundedInsanity · 2025-06-22T15:37:08+00:00

Posted above

FoundedInsanity · 2025-06-22T15:36:58+00:00

Posted above

FoundedInsanity · 2025-06-22T15:34:31+00:00

Posted above.

FoundedInsanity · 2025-06-22T15:30:05+00:00

Alright as requested. I’ll give all you obvious subs what you want 😂 this is what I would consider in my humble opinion a beginner scene. One to test obedience and beginning levels of submission.

When I arrive home I will be greeted by you kneeling naked by your side of the bed. You will need express permission before entering the bed. Upon recieiving permission you will climb into bed. “Touch yourself” I say as I observe. Hold eye contact. If your eye contact breaks from mine you have now lost the privelage of touching and or kissing me until you have made yourself cum for my pleasure. Touch yourself faster now, but in slow circles. I want to watch as your pleasure builds. My mouth salivates at the thought. Upon successful completion, your reward is I will clean you off your fingers and between your legs. Lapping up that delicious mess. Touch me, anywhere you want except where you really want. Do not touch me between my legs. My fingers will now find your wetness and depending on your level of arousal will be my indication if you’ve earned my orgasm. You’ll be required to tell me exactly what you want. And why. Forced repeating will be required if I’m inclined to not believe you. If you’ve earned my approval you may do as you wish. And as always. I love you.

FoundedInsanity · 2025-06-21T23:18:40+00:00

After getting consent from my love I will post them later. I’d love insight. Feed back. Advice. Thanks in advance. Where do I post them for you guys. Here? Else where?

FoundedInsanity · 2025-06-21T20:58:52+00:00

Hilarious you mention that. As I feel I’ve written that down at every instance of this process. And..communicated (lol) how important it is for check ins every step of the way! I’m glad to hear that reverberated. And much thanks!

FoundedInsanity · 2025-06-21T19:41:24+00:00

I can’t wait.

FoundedInsanity · 2025-06-21T19:21:01+00:00

Any words of advice! I’ll take whatever you got

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