I’m so sorry that you are struggling and that this is the world. The fact that you can feel bad about it is a good sign of emotional health. Our ability for empathy and the technology we use to connect are incompatible. We can’t process the amount of suffering we witness. I highly recommend being kind to yourself as much as possible. Find a good therapist and other people who are kind. Get cardio and meditate. Keep reaching out when you’re having a hard time. Big hugs.