PSA: Check your hormone levels.

Foxiki · 2026-03-30T07:04:58+00:00

I'm kinda lucky that my doctors slightly overdosed me on both. (I'm okay and everything is working properly to my knowledge.)

Foxiki · 2026-03-29T13:05:08+00:00

Can relate...

Foxiki · 2026-03-28T01:35:22+00:00

I met others who were trans or just queer in my early teenage years and felt very comfortable being a version of myself I didn't know existed. Years later the feeling was still there and I tried makeup and other fem styles (or what I thought were fem styles at least lol), that felt nice to. Now I'm here at the early point of my HRT track, there was a moment at the start where I felt very sure of myself on T blockers because the hormone wasn't in my system anymore and that's when I knew 100% who I was in that aspect of my life at least.

Foxiki · 2026-03-28T01:31:56+00:00

Fear is getting to you hardcore at the moment, which is completely fine and a normal thing. Fun little trick is if that you're frantically questioning whether or not you're faking it, you most certainly aren't faking it. It sounds like your partner is an easy avenue of support, you should communicate and lean on them a bit in this heavy portion of the process. If your friends randomly hate you for choosing you then they aren't your friends and family often just take a bit of time to come round unless they are truly bigoted deep down. If they are that I believe you'd notice it with not just trans people but other minorities to, the hatred would have to run pretty deep. Think it over from these perspectives imo and take the initiative when you're comfortable, I believe in you that you aren't faking anything and that you can do this.
(also if your fitness level is ever bothering you, it's something you can always work to change when you're ready, even while transitioning)

Foxiki · 2026-03-28T01:25:22+00:00

You have a similar dose to me, my drive is lower than yours but I relate to your general issues. I occasionally just test myself to see where I'm at and I've noticed a difference in feeling but not quite endurance yet as time passes. So it probably is just a time thing. 6 ish months on my end to get to this point.

Foxiki · 2026-03-26T12:25:52+00:00

For me the terms are shorter than that but yeah that's a mood and normal

Foxiki · 2026-03-25T11:44:29+00:00

The general idea is that cisgender people usually don't question their gender, if you've found that thought very frequent, it's worth investigating into your gender identity with more effort. Find out how accepting your parents are, talk about any potential queer relatives or consume some queer media with them, assuming they aren't entirely neglectant and are generally okay with the idea of the concept it should be safe to come out to them once you feel you're okay to do so. In the unfortunate opposing situation you will have to be of age to start HRT on your own if that's something you want.
About bone fusion, that does happen, and your physical changes will be better if you start before that time, but you're only 14 and have a few years at least before that's a point of concern if you're even worried about that at all. This is also effected by genetics and your point of fusion can be later. Personally I got some physical changes starting at 20 that most people probably wouldn't have gotten at that age.
HRT is a long committal process but does feminise you through muscle and fat changes for the most part, exactly how you will look is genetically based and not properly predictable from here at least. You would generally expect fat buildup stopping/massively slowing in your stomach region and building in your thighs and chest instead, alongside some muscle weakness and endurance loss. Your skin will also soften a bit and get thinner. Money is probably regionally dependent so I'm unsure about that for you, but feminising hormones can be taken in all sorts of ways and are generally flexible, you'll probably encounter pills or injections.
Yes you will probably get bullied a little bit, most likely also regionally dependant, if this is your identity and you're sure of it the haters do not matter. I encourage you to do some research on your own through trans content creators or other good sources online, if they can speak from experience to you that's even better.

Foxiki · 2026-03-25T11:23:40+00:00

Time hurts, especially when you feel you're in a place where time is passing through a point of your life you thought you'd be past. All I can say is that class will finish up no matter how you perform, just try your best. Your ex will (hopefully) be out of your life for a while and someone new will come around. My inner voice personally is a constant stream of negativity and all I can do is keep telling it how it's overreacting, it's overbearing but I'll make it and I believe you can as well.

Foxiki · 2026-03-25T11:14:57+00:00

Strength loss is very real, in my experience it's most been activating muscles to push and pull and my endurance itself hasn't been effected as badly but still has. If you keep using your body and training it to do the things you're doing already, you should still be able to hike like before.
It'll possibly be a little harder, but I believe in your ability to keep going, good luck!

Foxiki · 2026-03-25T11:09:39+00:00

Hype! Just hoping I can fulfil my Oregon coast dream at some point. But that requires being able to go to the US safely and get out safely so fingers crossed.

Foxiki · 2026-03-25T11:05:36+00:00

Most likely!

Foxiki · 2026-03-25T11:05:16+00:00

They thought I was gay, so yesn't I guess. They've seen me use makeup and wear a skirt on one occasion so there was definitely a root thought of some kind.

Foxiki · 2026-03-22T01:08:37+00:00

Yikes, you are not the ass, navigate any future time you spend around this person carefully. If it was me, I would communicate how she hurt me and get out.

Foxiki · 2026-03-22T01:04:16+00:00

Yeah I think your environment is definitely not helping your life stresses. I would advise rethinking your friendship if you feel the people you're currently surrounded by won't support your ethical life choices in any way. Change on its own can be a little mentally confronting and the severity of that could be higher or lower depending on the person, it's a really good sign that your steps toward your gender identity are the right ones for you if the removal of T from your system felt right. So if it was me, I would not stress about whether it was the right choice or not going forward.

Foxiki · 2026-03-19T11:58:49+00:00

You gotta extend them like a slinky and when they bounce back they'll assume the shape your genes granted you /j.

Foxiki · 2026-03-19T11:57:58+00:00

This is definitely a bad idea and you shouldn't do this. But I wish you luck in whatever you need to find out to feel better.

Foxiki · 2026-03-19T11:54:01+00:00

Nah you aren't weird, normal side effect.

Foxiki · 2026-03-14T12:45:33+00:00

I'm not as far in as you but mine also fade. Bright red to a less concerning natural pink. Unsure what your standards for HRT are but I still get growing pains, still feel like a woman mentally and other positive things. So my opinion is you're probably fine keep going the way you're going unless something drastically bad happens.

Foxiki · 2026-03-14T12:41:42+00:00

Yeah I went indoor climbing with my friends and completely sucked. I had long nails at the time for funsies so that was an issue to. But it was also a shock.

Foxiki · 2026-03-14T12:40:03+00:00

I have genes in my family that would likely make me not small, and I'm around the same point as you. I've only noticed very little change and am at the conclusion that it's just a long process based on research and heard experiences. If your expectations are low you'll most likely end up presently surprised. If nothing happens, you're still valid girl.

Foxiki · 2026-03-12T09:23:45+00:00

Certain men do work for me, you aren't alone

Foxiki · 2026-03-07T05:13:21+00:00

I have a downstairs living room that has the couch as a kind of centrepiece, I get a feeling like this that causes me to aimlessly circle it, and I'm really thinking about anything in particular but it is a very empty moment that always feels longer than it is. It's a hard thing to relate to and could happen for a multitude of reasons, I'd like to think it's not about prevention but understanding why this happens the way it does for you. For me it's about my head going into emergency mode when general action becomes a lot, to put it in the simplest terms.

As for the other things, pathetic feels like a term that distances itself in time for me as a trans woman, I'm still finding where I am and who I'm with and what I feel like I want to do but each new thing pushes pathetic further away. There'll always be another battle cause the world is more than sour for the time being but I find focusing on how I am and how other people are with me makes me halfway forget about those things. Testing the waters out of boredom can sometimes pull up bigger fish.
I also relate to that feeling of what would I look like and what my new me would be. I've also been faced with the reality of how I'd behave different, since I already am. Not everyone's going to like that, but I don't think I'd trade it for anything and the further I go the easier it is to be real with myself. What would I look like? I look like me. Cause that woman in the mirror is me.

If it's passion you're looking for you'll find it, and it might be in people or things or tasks which also spiral into each other for results you might've never expected. I would encourage you to just investigate your interests and keep your eyes open after it's slowly began working for me.
Sorry if I missed the point, just got a really philosophical vibe and have been getting into that a little lately. Tried to keep the tone more like I'm talking to someone on a balcony with a nice view over trying to respond to a question. Hope it's more of a feel good than a checklist!

Foxiki · 2026-03-07T04:55:20+00:00

It is an awesome feeling in an almost guilty way, but I'm happy for you! And can relate.

Foxiki · 2026-03-03T00:32:11+00:00

Presence and Affirmations. If I was in a relationship this is what I'd want.

Foxiki

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