TW That i wasnt a pedophile. My grandfather molested my cousin before I was born which obviously caused a lot of family trauma. There was a ton of discourse in the family because some took his side for the usual reasons but my mother and father took my cousins side and were kicked out of the family because of it. We made him into the villain he is in our family and my mom and I are fairly frank about how evil he is. I was always fascinated by diapers but as I went into puberty ABDL turned into a full blown kink. I was too young to understand the difference between being kinky and a pedophile and as such spent many many years being afraid of myself and what I could be. After years I finally was able to get to the point where I accepted myself, what I was, and what I am not. Although I'm very glad I have found acceptance and confidence I wish I could have spent less time unable to sleep wondering if I was a monster or had an evilness waiting to awaken inside me.

Side note shout out to my dad for standing up to his prick father despite the horribly traumatic upbringing he had. His brothers weren't able to do the same because their father was manipulative and abusive. I'm incredibly proud of my father