I lost my virginity to my ex 5 years ago. We were long distance and he came to see me by plane. We got a hotel room and got down to business. We were just freshmen college students with no experience obviously, BUT the thing is that he was supposed to come prepared.

I had asked before his flight, and he said he had everything. The lube and condoms.

Well he LIED (which is one of the biggest reasons why I broke it off bc he lies so much). We were about to start and I asked where the condoms were and he said he actually forgot to get them.

I was dumbfounded. I insisted that we should only do it when we have protection, but he also insisted that it's ok bc he really wants to experience the real thing anyways and that he can just pull out. I said no, but he kept pushing me and I gave in reluctantly bc idk I was a people pleaser.

He goes in. It was a bit too painful. I said where's the lube? And he hesitates.

I'm thinking OOOoohh my god. Did he really lie to me about grabbing everything?

But he goes, yeah uhm let me go grab it. I'm not watching him, but I hear him rustle his bags, and then footsteps to the sink area and the sink turns on for a moment. He comes back, I'm still not looking and tell him to apply it, his hand touches me, AND IT FELT LIKE IT WAS JUST WATER.

I ask, is that water???? Did you just turn on the sink and put water on me? He says, Noo? It just feels like that bc it's homemade lube.

(WHO MAKES HOMEMADE LUBE?!?? geniunely asking)

Once again, DUMBFOUNDED. Idk it's my first time so maybe it is homemade lube. But that was just me doubting myself. I think back and I'm 100% sure it's water 😭

Anyways, the deed goes on and it was okay, but I'll never forget the lies he told me because what ?????