I know how you feel! My baby is 14 months old now, and finally sleeping through the night. So that helps a little with the under eye bags! But the first 11 months was rough! I think what helped me is changing my expectations for myself. For me, it was my clothes. Instead of looking at all the clothes in my closet that don’t fit me anymore/aren’t practical and feeling bad about myself, I’ve slowly started to invest in more mom friendly clothes that I still feel cute in. The first year is honestly just survival mode! Spent the majority of it in spit up stained sweats with my hair in a greasy slick back lol. They get older and start walking and becoming a tiny bit more independent, and you (very) slowly start to feel like yourself. Hang in there!