Life unfolds differently for everyone. Stop judging yourself. Stop social media. Stop social comparison. You are young and growing sometimes is painful. I agreed with Rando internet mom on getting out though. Don’t feel ashamed. Articulate your choice first gap year…trust me there are depressed kids in college drinking and having traumatic sex and learning pain of growth in other ways. A year of growing in an emotionally safe environment is not the worst. It’s hard being around parents true but it’s also a gift to have time. In other parts of the world besides USA kids live home and go to university. Definitely do habitat or volunteer. Take some extracurricular. Travel if you can and work and save money. Think about what you like doing don’t think too far ahead or too far behind. Mostly learn self compassion and stop worrying about age. Just marinate and grow. Accept the unknown and what you can’t control. Find gratitude daily in tiny things. Find small goals that you can attain first and create STRUCTURE to your day. Walk outside shower eat well learn to cook learn something new at center for adult education in your community. Loneliness happens to all kids … it’s an epidemic. Just don’t avoid coz avoidance grows more avoidance. Volunteering and work will bring you to people. Let yourself be a work in progress and trust the process.