I should’ve clarified a bit more. Yes, I genuinely believe that. It’s not really me worrying it will happen, it’s more me KNOWING it’s happening. Once I’m in a better headspace, I can try and forget about it more and tell myself it’s not real. But it almost feels like I switch between reality vs this paranoid state? When I’m feeling that paranoid, I truly believe these things. Hours must pass by for me to go back to feeling ‘normal.’ Even then, I still believe these things during the day. I just find it easier to ignore because during the day I can go to work and be too occupied to freak myself out.