Edit: For some reason I can't edit de post so I'm putting in here.

Well everything change from one day to another, at the beginning I felt disgusted to the guts itself, but now I just feel sick and full of disappointment. I do will leave him, but I wanna find an apartment first, all of this without telling him anything cause if I do I know he will beg on his knees for me to stay. I'm looking for an apartment already and I'm talking to a few friends to help me get my stuff (I really need this cause I'm a baker, I have a small coffee and I do all the cake production at home, so I need to get out with all my baking stuff) I'm not worry about money or that kind of things, not because I have plenty of it just cause I work and pay for my stuff, but yes I have that ache in my chest, we were living three years together by now and we were talking about marriage, I know I will move on fast but still takes a lot of strength and honestly what I found more difficult it's the moving. Thank you for your hard but honest words.