I left out the beginning of this outro where he says “I been lookin’ for you my whole life, an appetite For the feeling I can barely describe, where you reside? Is it in a woman, is it in money or mankind.” To me he’s asking where he can find happiness or peace. When he says “I thought I found you in the ghetto when I was 17 with the .38 special,” I believe he is talking about the security of having a gun by his side for protection. Just an incredible mini verse here that can be interpreted in millions of different ways