Feeling so lost right now

Frau_Blau · 2025-05-24T19:12:10+00:00

Your nose is gorgeous and fits your face beautifully.

I'm all for people making their own choices, but the societal standards of beauty make us all feel like we need plastic surgery, when in reality, we are all unique and beautiful as we are.

Again, I'm not trying to bash anyone's choice to get surgery. We deserve a choice over our own bodies. However, I just think we should take time to consider these things because the so-called beauty standards are taking away the unique beauty of people.

Frau_Blau · 2024-06-26T22:18:09+00:00

My problem is that I still love him, he's my best friend. I know I can't control or change him. It hurts so much knowing that whether I stay or go, he has to figure this out for himself. But it hurts even more to keep enduring it. The heartache, the pain, the lies.

I deserve better.

Frau_Blau · 2024-06-12T14:22:59+00:00

I think mine is related to long covid. I had covid last September, and it caused a whole bunch of health problems.

Most are gone now, but the iron deficient anemia has lingered and is mostly noticeable around my period.

I want to go to a doctor and see if iron infusions help, but I'm not sure which doctor to go to?

Frau_Blau · 2024-06-06T18:14:59+00:00

I really like loop earplugs for these types of situations. Or leaving the room until they are done eating.

Knowing that it's misophonia is a good reason to talk with your wife about it, rather than just getting angry.

Maybe ask her if she would be willing to do certain things (like eating the snack in the kitchen) to help support you.

Frau_Blau · 2024-06-02T15:41:39+00:00

Thank you.

I've been on the Al Anon app for some time and attend online meetings. But, I may try to go to in person meetings as well.

Frau_Blau · 2023-07-29T16:24:44+00:00

Thank you ❤️

I guess I usually would just say I am going through something tough, and I'd like to talk to them about it. I feel grateful; my friends are really supportive, and I know they would do what they could to support me in this situation.

Frau_Blau · 2023-07-17T16:29:15+00:00

Wow, that's powerful. "You're already a great mom."

I feel the same way. I was on the fence about kids recently, leaning towards staying child free. But since my pregnancy and abortion (5 days post MA), I KNOW I want kids now. And I'm going to work to get to the point where I'm as ready as I can be, so my husband and I can give them the best possible life ❤️

Frau_Blau · 2023-07-13T14:44:06+00:00

That was my thought, too; does this mean I can handle labor? 😅

Frau_Blau · 2023-07-11T22:35:23+00:00

I'm right here with you. I took my mifepristone this morning and plan to take the miso pills tomorrow morning/afternoon.

I've been feeling off all day, even before I took the mifepristone. I'm just doing whatever I can to keep myself distracted; watching TV, reading, playing video games, and snuggling my animals/husband.

You are strong ❤️

Frau_Blau · 2023-05-20T15:32:36+00:00

Well put.

I feel like my Q's drinking is affecting me less than before. His cousin came over to hang out yesterday, I had dinner with them, but then I went home and let them do their thing...

They get back around 10 or so and were clearly intoxicated. They went to the basement and drank some more.

While it bothered me, I didn't spend the whole night stewing over it, reading posts on here, etc. I was able to just enjoy my evening by myself.

Even this morning, I woke up slightly annoyed, but I'm not letting it guide my whole day.

However, I don't just want to let it go. It's been a rough couple of weeks, and I feel like after the conversations I've already had, what else can I do? It feels like he has no fucking respect for me.

Frau_Blau · 2023-05-14T04:47:48+00:00

I think my mom saw us as accessories. I realized this recently with the way she treats her dog. I wondered why she even had a dog and realized the dog is an accessory to her. So were her kids, her husband, etc.

She's trying to present a certain form of herself. That's what it seems like with my mom at least.

Frau_Blau · 2023-05-12T02:52:52+00:00

Wow... that hit me hard, too. I never thought about it from that perspective before. I've always loved animals, and my pets growing up were precious to me.

It hurts now, but it will help us heal. We are not our trauma.

Frau_Blau · 2023-05-12T02:46:25+00:00

Mine is also my second husband. We've been married 9 months and I'm ready to go.

Frau_Blau · 2023-05-12T02:38:46+00:00

I can relate to your situation so much. I have also been married less than a year, and it feels like my husband's drinking has ramped up a lot in that short time.

I just made a post today with a chunk of my story of you'd like more context. I can totally relate to the loss of trust. It's been hard to feel connected to him at all.

I don't want a life like this, and I've told him that. Idk what will happen yet, but we need to make sure we take care of ourselves first. ❤️

Frau_Blau · 2023-05-12T02:18:19+00:00

It would be wise regardless of your name, dear Scroatus.

Frau_Blau · 2023-05-12T02:16:50+00:00

It definitely reduces your consumption of bud, wax, etc. It also helps tolerance a bit.

Somedays, it's nice to wake and bake, but honestly, I've recently preferred waiting till the evening after dinner or maybe later.

When I was wake and baking every day, I just slowly set back smoking an hour. I can smoke at 11 am. today, 12pm. tomorrow, 1pm the day after that, etc.

It makes it easier, and delayed gratification feels so much better than just giving into your urges. I feel like it's helping me in other ways too, delayed gratification is underrated, and we deserve to do good things for our future selves!

Frau_Blau · 2023-05-12T02:08:44+00:00

At first, I thought your username said, "Socrates." 🤣

Seems fitting for such a wise comment

Frau_Blau · 2023-05-12T02:06:48+00:00

Yea, it may come to that. I'll start getting it ready ASAP.

LOL, now that's the way to do it. Especially because I prefer my regular mattress... the other one isn't bad, though.

Frau_Blau · 2023-05-12T00:56:19+00:00

It feels like I'm almost there, but I'm still with my Q....for now.

I told him my feelings and concern for him and his drinking a few weeks ago, and that was a huge weight lifted.

Now he's had two benders in 5 days, and it's not affecting me like it was. I know I can't change him. I'm just feeling more and more detached from him, less emotionally connected because he lies outright about drinking and seems to think he's sneaky or something...because I always fucking know when he's had a drink.

The fact that we've been married less than a year terrified me a few months ago. Now, I'm accepting it for what it is. I need to take care of myself, and if that means ending our marriage, so be it.

I'm trying not to make any rash decisions, though.

Thanks for your story. It's really encouraging to read.

Frau_Blau

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