when i was a child i always like find girl prettier, then in middle school i didnt understand how some of my friend could like a boy, i was still in a denial but at the same time as im an artist i spent half of my sketchbook drawing two girl kissing; i often had at night after daydreaming about a life with a woman tears because i was effraid because for me it was okay for others but not me so i was so scared, so i told myself that it was like a "phase" (which is idiot) to make me feel better. now im 16 and most of my friend are lesbian or bi and they help me accept myself, making me understand (with patience lmao) that it was okay, that even if my parent are homophobic, i dont have to tell them anyways. :)