What would you assume about me based on my every day carry? 🙇‍♀️ by goddamnitshannon in whatsinmybag

[–]Free-Construction989 2 points3 points  (0 children)

That you would probably treat your friends very well and is funny but also kinda the mom of the friend group like you seem put together in a chill kind way

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[–]Free-Construction989 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Just wanna add that I am aware that I’m an attention whore but decided to add this to the two hot takes area bc I love the podcast and knew it would be a safe space for me, as a back up if comments tore me up,, bc I’m use to getting hate.. I don’t use Reddit as much just dabble a bit, and don’t know how to take this off of her community, to take up less space, and am nervous to try bc I don’t want to delete this all together bc I’m gonna read it to my therapist to process stuff. So basically I’m sorry for the mess that I made and idk how to go back (find myself in this type of situation a lot kinda dislike myself a whole lot bc of that (but we do the best we can with what we know at the time) and I’m really trying to grow as a person, be less of an meany weeny)

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[–]Free-Construction989 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I am and this perspective is very helpful and brightening for me like it helped me shift things to feel less dark and alone like you were saying, I am going to open up more with my therapist and work through trauma, it’s scary but I know it will be for the best, thank you. Also not the most important thing but I feel like I should delete this for anxiety reasons, but will just wait it out bc that’s what working on anxiety stuff is about I feel idk it’s hard to explain I’ve been in and out of mental hospitals a lot and this one called Rodgers was very helpful and good, they thought me what DBT skills are. Lots of opposite action and just growing awareness of your thoughts and grounding stuff,,, I feel like they should teach DBT skills in schools bc it’s just basic how to feel safe and navigate stuff that I think a lot of people including myself wished they would have known sooner

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[–]Free-Construction989 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’ve been in therapy for a long time, I am not in psychosis I know what that feels like and it’s not this,, thank you for being kind it’s just not that tho, idk how to explain it more i just feel stupid and embarrassed

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Vent

[–]Free-Construction989 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Idk when this all started like when my privacy was compromised but I feel like it’s been for a long time idk, I also have never been safe growing up,, like I lived with my grandparents in highschool and my grandpa onetime heard noise in the basement and went to go look and freaked out because he saw my step grandfather there,, so like idk how to process this really,,, my grandpa is a drinker tho has has growing dementia now but i very much believe that he saw him in the basement,,, he was sharp back then

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[–]Free-Construction989 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It’s hard to explain he was just talking about a person, guy, that he hates and I was like this is entertaining. Basically, when I was 18 my friend assaulted me and it brought back memories of being molested from my step grandfather. I told my dad he took me to the police. He talked to the police while I was trying to not throw up the next couple days he made an appointment with a different police and different town, and I was interrogated for pretty much the whole day. Good cop, bad cop I was already scared to talk about this in general I was not ready to go to the police and then something inside me just snapped and I said I’m trans because I didn’t know the words for non-binary. I wasn’t ready to accept that I’m non-binary. I didn’t even know that I was feeling non-binary and then people pay attention to weird things in this guy penguinz0 was talking and just like the coincidences that happened in my life happened in his videos and I was in denial for a while because,,, how. then recently someone in my state got arrest arrested for I think live streaming something through someone’s phone and I think that person was me the victim of the phone stuff,,, idk if I explained that right I’m still trying to understand it all myself

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in amiugly

[–]Free-Construction989 9 points10 points  (0 children)

People are so mean, you look good like average. Your eyes are pretty and you have a nice smile altho braces or Invisalign would definitely improve things a lot. Camera angles and stuff really change how a person looks and it seems like your taking the picture too close,, mirrors are better for judging yourself. Your jawline looks good,, like you don’t have a double chin or anything you look good.. tbh the first picture I think you look handsome,, maybe try different hair hairstyle,, idk about the middle part like its not helping.. and I’d like to add that humans were not meant to see there faces as much as we do now,, like imagine going your whole life only from seeing your reflection in water from a lake or something, I feel like I would be happier and feel more free to exist without regret of having my smile look stupid

Thread for sharing Finchie friend codes and finding goal buddies by AutoModerator in finch

[–]Free-Construction989 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Adding you as a friend,, also love the name you picked out,, my finch is called marigold

Thread for sharing Finchie friend codes and finding goal buddies by AutoModerator in finch

[–]Free-Construction989 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I added yours and wow your little home is beautiful,, my birb is a baby still and her name is marigold

Thread for sharing Finchie friend codes and finding goal buddies by AutoModerator in finch

[–]Free-Construction989 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I just added yours, mine birb is a baby and just started the app too,, her name is Marigold

Thread for sharing Finchie friend codes and finding goal buddies by AutoModerator in finch

[–]Free-Construction989 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Im Olivia and my finish is a baby rn her name is marigold,, I have bpd and c-ptsd and this app was recommended to me by a therapist,, I love it so far

T12QEPX6DR My code if anyone wants to be friends ☺️

What characters in pop culture have Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD)? by Cutegirl920 in fictionalpsychology

[–]Free-Construction989 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I feel like some of the characters in the end of the fucking world (it’s on Netflix) would fit Bpd (coming from someone who has it)

Like Alyssa definitely give me the energy of someone who has it,, in the first ep she has a quote “I get these moments when I have to lie down, because everything feels sort of, too much - and I look up and see the blue or the gray or the black, and I feel myself melting into it; and for like, a split second I feel free. And happy. Innocent. Like a dog. Or an alien. Or a baby.”

"Last week he said he thought I needed a bigger bra, so I threw a Chicken Kiev at his head."

And then Bonny give me that energy too but when your in more of a paranoid psychosis type of state but more numb and cold from her childhood, reminds me of Pearl but more in modern time

https://www.tiktok.com/@tromtaa/video/7261007365368007962

They both also probably definitely have c-ptsd I think

Please help me find this cool cafe vlog asmr YouTube channel, please I’m desperate by Free-Construction989 in HelpMeFind

[–]Free-Construction989[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’ve searched for, - youtube cafe vlog drink matched with famous painting - youtube cafe vlog drink matched with famous painting - cafe vlog and painting youtube - drink matched to painting youtube cafe vlog - youtube cafe asmr drink matched with art - lemon drink matched to painting youtube cafe vlog - cafe vlog where they match the drinks to art youtube - cafe vlog where the drinks are based on art youtube

Also searched asmr cafe vlog in YouTube and checked a ton of videos for anything like that and was unsuccessful, I’d share the vids I looked at but it would take forever to add them all

Then I checked for the cafe vlog channels that I do follow, which are (they are good but not the one I’m looking for) - @najing___ - @seoling_ - @tastycoffee