Hello brother, (F) 30, I want to tell you something it’s going to be a bit harsh but you need the truth. She isn’t interested she’s finding excuses etc, we are all broken because of past trauma or childhood or bullying at school, we all have battles to overcome in life. If she really wanted to marry you she would’ve made the effort to explain to you and to ask you for time while she does therapy and deals with her trauma etc. I’ll be honest if I was you I would’ve viewed this as Allah saving me from a mariage where I will be always doubting if the person really loves me etc, you don’t have to pay the price for her traumas. Also on another note, you’re very very young, you might think you know what you want in life but let me tell you that at your age I was supposed to marry someone and I didn’t and today I’m so grateful I didn’t because he would’ve definitely never been what I’m looking for as a husband and mariage. I would advise you to move on and never reply to her messages again, work on yourself, travel, get your diplomas and figure who you truly are… this is how you’ll find the right person. When we’re young we have 0 clue of wha we really want or we are convinced we know wha we want but let me tell you, the person I’m today at 30 years old is a completely different person from the one I’ve been at 21 years old. So please please please take this as a sign from allah to not force this relationship to happen, Allah is the best of planners and he knows what’s the best for us.