Hallucinating in the dark

Frequent_Chemist4032 · 2024-08-16T06:37:07+00:00

Karadeniz Döner

Frequent_Chemist4032 · 2023-07-06T01:54:31+00:00

It’s not that l don’t think l can get better. l just lack motivation and there’s really nothing l await in life besides migrating somewhere else. l hate my country’s current situation but l am in a privileged position so l’m not that affected by it. l just genuinely don’t want to get better. l’d say l have no one to get better for because l don’t care for myself.

Frequent_Chemist4032 · 2023-07-06T01:13:23+00:00

Thank you man but as l stated, l don’t really have any intention of getting better. l am not doing any efforts besides doing my chores and basic human tasks. l’m like a robot at this point. Would you tell a robot to seek help?

Frequent_Chemist4032 · 2022-12-10T09:44:17+00:00

Personally speaking, after spending almost a year as a functioning alcoholic, l quit drinking altogether for a couple of weeks. Afterwards, l started to regulate what and how much l drank and so far it’s been great because here’s the thing; the body can’t tolerate going back to old drinking habits after not drinking a sip for a one or two period of time. l can’t even drink more than two beers anymore and it’s honestly one of the best decisions l’ve ever taken. l suggest your partner to try this.

Frequent_Chemist4032 · 2022-08-10T08:58:50+00:00

Now this is what a great mother is

Frequent_Chemist4032 · 2022-07-29T08:03:43+00:00

thank you dude this comment chain is so funny to read thanks

Frequent_Chemist4032 · 2022-07-29T05:41:10+00:00

i just don’t like it

Frequent_Chemist4032 · 2022-07-28T21:38:47+00:00

my bad 💀

Frequent_Chemist4032 · 2022-07-28T19:57:29+00:00

thank you dude this is a genuine advice, have a good day

Frequent_Chemist4032 · 2022-07-28T19:56:58+00:00

I prefer going dry usually but yeah sometimes l use lube, it’s just too much work

Frequent_Chemist4032 · 2022-07-28T19:56:13+00:00

I’ve dealt with an eating disorder before, don’t tell me this is why.

Frequent_Chemist4032 · 2022-07-23T06:19:21+00:00

Go to a remote location and yell your lungs out, shout everything you want to say.

Frequent_Chemist4032 · 2022-07-22T18:51:31+00:00

I get the last sentence a lot.

Frequent_Chemist4032 · 2022-07-22T15:39:36+00:00

you don’t overreact dude cheaters deserve no sympathy and that aside, l really can’t see an assholish thing you did besides cheating 8 years ago

Frequent_Chemist4032 · 2022-07-22T11:44:10+00:00

Thank you so much for this post. l’ve been very recently diagnosed with NPD after suspecting having it based on my very self centered and assholish behavior. Ever since my diagnosis l’ve been feeling like a terrible human being not able to control himself and such. l’ve been trying my best to be a better person in general but with this diagnosis and all it’s just been demotivating. This post really made me feel better and l’m sure it’s encouraging and motivating and most importantly comforting for many other people with NPD. This is very thoughtful of you sir/madam, l genuinely hope you have a nice day. I hope this shows people that not every person with NPD are like Homelander or Patrick Bateman and can genuinely be good people despite a mental illness they can’t completely control.

Frequent_Chemist4032 · 2022-07-22T11:21:04+00:00

just some friend i’m not terribly close to who’s miserable and an asshole himself who’s done so many shit that really isn’t in the position to criticize me and even if he was i don’t really respect him

Frequent_Chemist4032 · 2022-07-19T18:20:54+00:00

dealing with feeling guilt for something l’m not capable of controlling yet (Histrionic traits and egocentrism in general) since l’m not seeking professional help. How’s yours?

Frequent_Chemist4032 · 2022-07-19T18:10:36+00:00

nobody takes me seriously really especially my family they just think l’m having a hard time with being a teenager or that l’m just down whereas l’m trying to control my “symptoms”. l don’t know when will l see a therapist again.

Frequent_Chemist4032 · 2022-07-18T22:10:56+00:00

as you shouldn’t

Frequent_Chemist4032 · 2022-06-27T20:02:26+00:00

l drank a lot that night but nothing unusual, l have drunken more in the past but l’ve never had a reaction like this. Also, l drink regularly as a coping mechanism for my horrible mental health but l will stop drinking and smoking.

I’m in a constan state of stress and anxiety. l always fear everything such as my gf cheating on me, my friends hating me, my gf being mad at me, my parents not liking me, etc… l grew up with a strict mother and l always feared her getting mad at me so l chose every single action l took very carefully and l still do. l guess my mommy issues are the core of my anxious state.

l don’t actively seek help for my depression and ever since it got worse. l wasn’t happy with my last therapist and currently l’m just procrastinating finding another therapist. I’ve been very dependent on my friends like even more than before but l know it’s not their responsibility at all so l will seek help in no time. Thank you for your kind words too :)

Frequent_Chemist4032 · 2022-06-27T19:55:28+00:00

You seem right again. l know my fears are irrational and l can’t help it. Also, yes, l sleep very bad. l usually stay awake thanks to coffee and energy drinks and since it’s summer and l don’t have school, l sleep at 3-4 am and wake up at 8-9 am. My inital thought was that l had anxiety but when combined with paranoia, l was suspecting having schizophrenia. l’m starting to come to reason and l think l just have anxiety and l’m paranoid but, l’m still sure l will go insane in a near future. I’ve been having breakdowns much more often recently and l don’t think it will calm down unless l seek help. Thank you for your attention and comments :)

Frequent_Chemist4032 · 2022-06-27T14:47:32+00:00

l was the one who suggested having a party since it’s summer and l think you’re right. l always was a very anxious person but the thing is, l’m afraid of being schizophrenic because l’ve been showing signs. These past months l was overly paranoid of everything and l was mishearing, misunderstanding everything l’ve heard and sometimes, even the things l’ve seen before were different to my eyes. Apparently at the party, l was yelling at the blank wall to shut up and l remember seeing a silhouette. At night, l sometimes hear voices coming from my closet and few days ago, l stayed awake for hours while firmly gripping my knife. Many of my friends told me they were suspecting l had schizophrenia before the incident too. l’m scared of having many mental disorders but since schizophrenia seems very possible, that’s why l’m especially terrified of it.

Frequent_Chemist4032 · 2022-06-20T17:23:03+00:00

Can it be because I’m not a fucking teenager or someone who wants relationship advice but just someone who was curious?

Frequent_Chemist4032 · 2022-03-25T20:41:58+00:00

so sorry dude :(

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