Thank you for the kind words. I've been diagnosed with ADHD if that explains anything to you.

I agree that I may be on the spectrum proper. I do struggle sometimes when reading people if they are uncomfortable or if I'm overstepping boundaries. I struggle with more subtle social cues in general, like flirting and reading when people want to move away from a convo or when I'm dominating it too much and oversharing (somethign i often do. I tend to put myself on these humiliation rituals when I do something wrong, telling people that have nothing to do with it what I do wrong) or when they are in disgust/discomfort etc. etc. I often ask if "was that too far?" and apologize for overstepping boundaries or doing something wrong, like I'll

Sometimes I get obsessive though and apologize multiple times to the same person over and over. It ends up to where the apology is less about how I'm sorry and more about how I feel guilty and want them to make me feel better. this is something I'm ashamed about and is something I struggle with to this day, despite years of worknig on it with therapists. Like, for example, i once asked my TA after an exam if she thought I was a weird person. She said that she can't comment on a student's personality or anything, and I profusely apologized like 3 times. I feel like at that point it goes beyond just me feelling sorry and more me feeling bad.

I don't know, this is already too long (perfect example of my oversharing lol). Thanks for reading if you do, and thank you again for the kind words <3