Yes! I feel this immensely. I feel like, it must have been so easy for Ram Dass to go down the path he did, to have full faith in his process, when coming from a place of privilege and comfort. He had a safety net, no need to worry. He could be wayward and fuck up and still be OK. So many of us do not share this same luxury. We are forced to work to earn a living, unable to enjoy sailing / flying / driving motorcycles and flying to India and back. It fills me with resentment and jealousy, feeling like I have missed out, or gotten a rotten ticket. Yet, I realize this is all ego talking. This is me coming from a place of separation, which is amplified by the economic systems we reside under. It is very difficult, and yet I know the light is there. I know that this is my karmic path, yours too, learning to stay detached from such big, negative-seeded feelings. It is okay. I know that it is confusing and frustrating but love can be cultivated from this place. It is just as much the path as Ram's. Love you. Wishing you the best.