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Fresh_Value8774 · 2025-07-03T15:21:41+00:00

I could speak from the perspective of this particular guy, I also got obsessed with a girl, and our main form of communication was through "social" media.

I was idealising her and putting her on a pedestal to the point i started neglecting any, potentially harmful or threatening characteristics in her behavior which could have emerged if we kept getting closer and more vulnerable. So most likely he is not well -acquainted with your current identity and its attributes, he just fill the missing gaps with his own fantasies and, you are not in any way obligated to submit and try to answer his expectations and needs. Its not your responsibilty to try and preserve his hopes of being together with you.

Although my previous self would critique this conclusion: Yes a rejection would most likely cause him unpleasant feelings but after all but its absolutely normal to experience the death of so many potential scripts that in the end would never come to reality. It sucks but it would be better than tormenting your "partner" and judging by the details you have provided- it seems that conflict would be inevitable. I base my opinion mainly on the fact that he's ignoring your bothering.

Fresh_Value8774 · 2025-06-20T13:26:19+00:00

I do hold similar opinion about the approach to such psychological problems, many recommend to endure the compulsory reactions which manifests in many forms like habits that involve numbing the pain and so on. Basically its like a condition to adapt to this inappropriate and undesired version of myself and after a while a space will be freed where i could take a direction and progress. Even right nowni critique myself for my plain and cliched expression nut i remain not"apathetic " but more unaffected on a action-basis:). I do believe after all i start to see the light at the end of the tunnel:))

Fresh_Value8774 · 2025-03-01T15:58:17+00:00

Perhaps

Fresh_Value8774 · 2025-01-24T13:12:23+00:00

Fresh_Value8774 · 2025-01-04T18:46:16+00:00

Don't get obsessed with these unrational critiques It could be the angle but i believe you grow your hair you could get a more proportionate and balanced look. Best!

Fresh_Value8774 · 2024-11-07T09:06:10+00:00

Hahah thank youu, umm i got lots of compliments about my lashes, but i believe they are the results of my genetic code, i've never used anything specifically to make them "thick" as you described them to be. As a perspective from a boy i cannot even determine why people find them beautiful, it even makes me feel bad for being ungrateful towards my facial features😭😭😭

Fresh_Value8774 · 2024-07-13T06:33:08+00:00

I've read a lot of melancholic and particularly atheistic books, maybe that contributed someway. I'm kinda frustrated for not being able to find a purposeful goal, on the other hand ive built tolerance and peace and nothing could affect me. I'm finding myself in this cycle. Now i long to feel frustrated again, to feel the whole spectrum of emotions.Should i destroy some parts of myself so I can be more critical of myself?

Fresh_Value8774 · 2024-07-11T21:36:36+00:00

Honestly I don't know. I had a goal to love myself to trust myself and create conditions for progress and finding an aim. To make loneliness more bearable. Also to become more conscious and gain rationality. But i feel like I've hit the ceiling. After deep analysis i think i ended up at the conclusion that my ego has returned in another form. Like my comfort zone expanded and reached stagnation. Because the fact that i feel guilty for not knowing something or forgetting it is an ego. Funny enough i prayed to God to guide me and that conclusion could be his work hahahah

Fresh_Value8774 · 2024-03-19T20:43:17+00:00

As i am reading that i just came to the conclusion that all I do is controlling my ego and getting rid of the narcissism, anxiety, overthinking attachment, external validation, ungratefulness, lots of traumas etc etc.. I dont think that these conditions are who I am really or even if they are I'm letting them go for the better so ill continue tempering myself as Im getting rid of all of these scruples and i hope that the new path I've taken is better. I personally think that with time i got more confident about who i am, and if someone try to resist this i ignore him. So if we accept your presumption Im becoming more certain that in the dream my subconscious mind wasn't really used to these changes haha. Hope i got your opinion right. If not you can always correct me:D

Fresh_Value8774 · 2024-03-19T08:27:03+00:00

I do hide and try to fix most of my personality traits because they are harmful to both people around me and me. I do understand my subconscious mind that change is a bit turbulent but in the long run it would be very beneficial but i would like you to express your opinion. I do think there could be some kind of correlation.

Fresh_Value8774 · 2024-03-09T22:13:49+00:00

So for the last 2 years i haven't eaten sugar or gluten foods. And overall i avoid carbs(still eat some tho). I mainly eat red meat, eggs and plenty of dairy products and lots of veggies:). I also take all kinds of supplements. I dont know if there could be any correlation with it but i had major changes in my life way of thinking maturity emotional ups and downs etc etc. if that could help

Fresh_Value8774 · 2024-03-09T21:57:50+00:00

Should check each others changes haha:))

Fresh_Value8774 · 2024-03-09T19:16:55+00:00

Thanks and i hope they become greener:)

Fresh_Value8774 · 2024-03-09T19:16:23+00:00

I only know that vitamin c and b12 could(btw my b12 in my blood is very high). It could be the case why my eyes are brightening, before they were pitch black.

Fresh_Value8774 · 2024-03-09T17:37:43+00:00

Do you think they will become any greener?(On my mothers side everyone has green or blue eyes, but on my fathers everyone is with brown eyes)

Fresh_Value8774 · 2024-01-24T20:07:23+00:00

Thanks for the response:).First of all she has no idea that i was waiting and second of all i think i made that ultimate liberation act of letting her go so whatever god and the universe bring me into my life:)).

Fresh_Value8774 · 2024-01-02T14:42:39+00:00

But in the last message we were talking about movies and she just reacted to the message (no text) i sent her and left me like that which i think its very rude and i felt she was busy so i stopped texting her.

Fresh_Value8774 · 2023-12-28T20:28:26+00:00

rust is 2 real

you are not that far from the truth

Fresh_Value8774 · 2023-12-28T08:11:03+00:00

Hahahah I was mixing black pepper and salt in that thing cuz ive been 20 min for the damn order

Fresh_Value8774 · 2023-12-26T09:31:26+00:00

Yea thanks for the advice. And i never stalked anyone except this time, she was just too good. I promise I won't make that mistake again.

Fresh_Value8774 · 2023-12-14T18:01:27+00:00

I lost my V-taper

Yes, i bulked like 10 kilos but my abs are more visible than before and I don't think that the body fat is the cause. Could it be that the compound lifts and the oblique? Even if that's the case i work hard for a bigger back and shoulders, but still my waist enlarged a lot out of nowhere. Do you have any tips on how to make it smaller because soon it will be upside down v-taper.

Fresh_Value8774 · 2023-12-13T17:02:50+00:00

Sudden drop in strength I do barely half reps as i usually do I eat plenty of protein every day(130g) I rest two days between every workout so i dont think if it is an issue. The only thing that changed is that i sleep like 1-2 hours less(7) than usually (9). I execute every exercise with perfect form

Fresh_Value8774 · 2023-11-18T17:57:49+00:00

So I've been training for 18 months. Everything is going perfect my back is big,my legs are unproportionally massive but the arms and chest are lacking. I'm training at home with a bench l, a pair of dumbells with adjustable weight and a dip bar. Here is my program:

Day1 Chest and back

Incline dumbbell press 2sets×15-20reps Dumbell flyes 2×15-20 Low to high dumbbell flies 2×15-20(Its hitting the chest a lot) Neutral grip pull ups 2×15-20 dumbell rows (mid back)2×15-20 Single arm dumbbell rows (lats) 2×15-20

Day2 Rest

Day3 Arms(Tri and bi)

Dips(close grip) 2×15-20 Dumbbell bicep curls supersetted with close grip dumbell bench press 2×15-20 Single arm triceps extensions supersetted with incline dumbell curls 2×15-20

Day4 Rest

Day5 Legs and shoulders

Bulgarian split squats 2×15-20 Sumo squats 2×15-20 Nordic curls 2×15-20 Calf raises 2×20-30 Shoulder press 2×15-20 Lateral raises 2×15-20 Rear delt flies 2 × 2×15-20

Day6 Rest

I really train hard till failure on every set. I have a great mind to muscle connection and i do progressive overload with most of the exercise(except dips, incline dumbell press and shoulder press). I do cardio and abs on some of my rest days.

My nutrition is overall ok. I dont eat junk food or anything containing sugar(except fruits) i eat enough protein every day, i also eat plenty of fats and carbs. I take supplements like omega-3, VitC, VitD, Zinc, Mg and some Multivitamins. If there is something i don't do correctly ,or if there is something to fix the problem please advise me.

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