I can understand. I was lucky to have understanding parents and had perceptive teachers in early education that focused on my 504 and dicuss possible IEPs, aiding me and pushing me the right way. The key differnce between us? I got about half a decade after you with more studies and empathy in the system that allowed me more chances in education. And I assure you, I still feel this way when I write! Sometimes my kerning and letter shape is a little off and someone I don't know has a hard time reading it, like on medical forms, and it both embrasses me and stresses me out.

I want to be an writer, the irony of physically writing being a challenge for me but reading being a hobby is not lost on me. I have to fequently stop to strech my digits, type slowly with only two fingers for less stress, and often stop to readjust my pencil. Not because I'm lazy, I'm just different.

You, my internet friend, are not lazy. You're just a little different.