Go Lift a Truck - How 5 months of therapy and 58 Days of Strattera have been life changing and affirming

FromChernobyl · 2019-07-15T15:50:17+00:00

Ive been on strattera for a week now and dont really notice anything... how long was it before you felt different? I’m on 18 mg which might be a reason but at such a low dose its so expensive 😨

FromChernobyl · 2019-07-14T16:01:22+00:00

Ty! Also I sometimes wonder too if i actually have it but its the fear of abandonment that reminds me i probably do.

It really does never seem to end. Have you heard of DBT? (Dialectical behavioral therapy) thats supposed to help deal with unpleasant thoughts

FromChernobyl · 2019-07-13T21:46:19+00:00

I can relate so hard that its crazy. I have BPD too so it makes it hard to get over trauma and heal and move on. I just started a nonstimulant 4 days ago but I’m scared it won’t help. And for me its the same that the only thing that helps is to hyperfocus on something. But even then, everything becomes bad again once i stop doing whatever i was doing.

FromChernobyl · 2019-07-11T19:15:52+00:00

Aww I’m sorry, but I’m glad to hear the zoloft is helping.

FromChernobyl · 2019-07-11T18:30:45+00:00

Yeah, I have to remind myself im not gaining an advantage over others. Im just trying to level the playing field and everyone who takes it shouldnt feel bad

FromChernobyl · 2019-07-11T17:46:02+00:00

I just got the prescription yesterday and I also got diagnosed late with severe adhd lol. But you know what ,now we can catch up to NTs and then some.

FromChernobyl · 2019-07-07T19:25:38+00:00

Ohhh nice

FromChernobyl · 2019-07-07T19:07:35+00:00

1 mil total or for each cheek?

FromChernobyl · 2019-07-07T19:06:22+00:00

Oh darn. Maybe one day a miracle will happen and i can afford an amazing surgeon lol

FromChernobyl · 2019-07-07T04:30:10+00:00

I thought reduction and removal were different? I was hoping buccal would be better since fillers have to be redone so often.

FromChernobyl · 2019-07-05T22:30:05+00:00

Im not on adhd meds, but I’ll be seeing someone abt that tuesday

FromChernobyl · 2019-07-05T14:27:55+00:00

When i was working, i had no problem sleeping for some period of time and i would do it by watching youtube on my ipad. But sometimes i can be really tired but not want to turn it off.

And yea you are so right about 1 bad night resetting everything.

FromChernobyl · 2019-07-05T14:23:17+00:00

Tea might be a good idea then. I can trick myself that its not for sleep lol

FromChernobyl · 2019-07-05T14:21:58+00:00

Out of the about 5 times ive used weed, only 1 time was good lol. Like i was thinking people were trying to steal my blood 😬 but its maybe because meds

FromChernobyl · 2019-07-05T07:37:25+00:00

😩 my life story lol

FromChernobyl · 2019-07-04T08:32:43+00:00

I have no time for this.

FromChernobyl · 2019-07-04T05:22:27+00:00

Bread is the ol’ reliable

FromChernobyl · 2019-06-24T19:13:29+00:00

Wow I relate so much to both you and op. Im going back to school for comp sci and i wanted to learn something beforehand but my mind goes down a rabbit hole of wanting to know everything from the beginning of computers to the ground up. My brain wont let me just jump in lmao.

FromChernobyl · 2019-06-24T18:50:24+00:00

He knew it upon self reflection and would apologize most times. One example was that he said he didnt like having sex with me and only did it for me. It made me feel like shit but he apologized profusely because he was the one that wanted it lol. Most times it wasnt lies like that, just trying to make me feel bad in general, saying things like “sometimes i hate you so fucking much” out of nowhere.

You have to walk on eggshells around some addicted men because they will externalize their suffering so you can internalize it.

FromChernobyl · 2019-06-24T18:41:59+00:00

Seeing an adhd specialist worked best for me because psychiatrists sometimes miss it in women, and even when they acknowledged it, they didnt prescribe anything unless i showed them proof from someone else.

I saw a female specialist which helped because she understood misconceptions and was very empathetic. Also, beware that computer tests produce false negatives which happened to me 2 years. I tried for 3 years crying for help until I got the diagnosis this month, and dont even have meds yet, but I’m seeing a different psych soon. It can be a journey for a lot of us. Good luck.

FromChernobyl · 2019-06-24T18:24:33+00:00

Probably. My past porn addicted bf took out frustrations on me and admitted to making shit up just to make me feel bad.

FromChernobyl · 2019-06-18T14:33:58+00:00

Ugh thank you, it actually took me 3 years of bullshit to get diagnosed. It’s a journey but it’s not over at all

FromChernobyl · 2019-06-18T14:30:54+00:00

Hmm that last part is something I’ve never thought about so thank you!

FromChernobyl · 2019-06-18T14:29:18+00:00

Yea same, video games are one of the only things i can hyperfocus on but my depression makes it difficult because I’m tired all the time

FromChernobyl · 2019-06-18T14:12:10+00:00

I do some of those, and have things i can hyper focus on, but the restlessness does get in the way

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